This is a goal that i set a strive to achieve everyday. Can’t ever take a day off from it. Have stayed sober for 4 months and 15 days, 137 days in a row, second longest period of sobriety since i was 16 years old. It will get easier. Its in gods hands now, not trying to do it by myself anymore. Will power will always fail, gods power never will. Heres to another day clean and sober. 14 months ago

well the plan is to go to an aa meeting at six thirty in the morning. I am working on the theory that if you keep doing the same things you will get the same results so I am trying something different… 17 months ago

hate myself, my life. what the hell is it all about? is this it? I am so sick of being grateful for my health, my life. fuck that. alone,noplan, feels futureless okay – here it is. just turned 49. never had a boyfriend. spent years, YEARS, dealing with incest. but now what. there is no answer, no winning, no prize. nothing. nothing. absolutely nothing. just mundanity and then death. is this really it. is there anyone out there who can tell me otherwise? 18 months ago

well, have drnk half bottle and so now cannot go out as planned. it isnt safe to drive. so. here I am. Now I have to tell Karen, best friend, who is waiting for me at her hourse. and this is it. this is my present and future. there is no future. I have everything and not so much. 18 months ago

11 oclock. so yes. I said no thnks when offered a drink at dinner. 18 months ago

good so far. 18 months ago