find more creative outlets

is something i used to really dig. i even took a summer figure drawing class at the art college. When I move into my new place I am going to bring my easel and drawing supplies and start again. maybe even go to the figure drawing Sundays they have at different places around town.

musically inclined but I’d love to do something where I could get on stage with him and have fun…sing a little or some sort of percussion…? How fun would that be?

the manual to this crazy 35mm camera I have. I have also ordered a basic photography book. I am going to hopefully start playing with it this winter. It is a bit foreboding, the manual is 85 pages long!!

I will see what else strikes me in terms of maybe doing some sketches or something…I have thought about picking the violin back up for some time now but I’m not sure an instrument is in the budget at this point. That may have to wait.

guilt I guess or shame that I am not more creatively talented in anything at this point in my life. I try to feel better by saying that I “live” creatively but I believe the truth is that I never tried anything enough to become skilled at it…

i am in a rut right now for sure, creatively. Even still my creative juices always start to flow this time of year. I love the autumn time. I’m focused on doing beautiful yet somewhat inexpensive things to the apartment to beautify it, and eventually fixing up the other bedroom for a nursery. :-)

to love and embrace life itself as a creative act. It’s the way I operate. Painting, writing, etc. haven’t come naturally to me, at least not felt compelled to do those things in the way that I think one should. Instead I work on the apt, my little gardens, my relationships. Painting or taking photos, writing poetry may well be part of that but I’m choosing not to focus so heavily on producing those things unless I just feel so inspired…does that make sense?

i’m all ideas and no follow-through. sigh