Merlynsparadise is trying to not be impatient!
I can’t say if this will ever happen. I have tried a few times this year to forgive people, but it ends up that I just ignore the problem at hand, not really forgive, just try and forget. Is there a difference? I think so. Like I said I will continue to attempt to do this for my own well being, but not sure if it will ever happen. Like forgiving myself, I can’t do that either. If I could, I wouldn’t feel so bad about what happen out on the farm two weeks ago, and I would still have what I wanted so much. A chance, a time for someone else to see me and for me to see them as something special.

