Quit social smoking

i know, i said i’ll consider this done, if after my birthday, i still haven’t touched a single cigarette..but i did, on my very birthday, and I felt bad about it. But I am really not touching a cigarette anymore and i know i just have to commit to not smoking anymore so here..i commit to quit social smoking from now on.. :D Done!

..was again tempted to smoke last weekend but i was able to successfully resist the urge..thinking about my health helps a lot..

I thought I am over ‘social smoking’ and almost considered this goal done but last Saturday, my nephew brought out a cigarette and I almost wanted to smoke again..hehe..but I didn’t, yay! If I’m able to resist the urge to smoke on my birthday (july 13), I am counting this done! :D

im trying to stop social smoking as it is clear that if i dont i’m likely to become a full time smoker. i smoked last on bank holiday and must have smoked about 10 cigarettes in the space of 5 hours whilst drunk. im really disappointed in myself for always doing this and i know how angry my whole family would be and how angry all of my friends already are. i know deep down i dont need to do this, but i just cant stop. just wondering how everyone else begun to stop and how they coped and things.
xx

Last Saturday was our company’s Family Day and I was again able to resist the urge to light a cigarette, yay!

9-10 May 2009

yay! i was able to ‘NOT’ smoke this weekend! :)

It’s Friday! I’m not touching a single cigarette tonight..i hope!

I have always stopped social smoking for periods of time and then always lapse. if my parents knew they would be so upset with me. its so easy to fall back into it after drinking or when i am trying to feel more comfortable around people and i hate it. i know i must be addicted on one level even though i never smoke when i’m sober. maybe i need to give up alcohol for 6 months to stop smoking. i really really want to do this properly.

had one last night and threw it on the floor after two drags- horrid, then later because i was drunk had nearly a whole one. Must remember how little i enjoyed them. good lesson.

bugger. have slipped up about three times. still determined to stop completely. onwards and upwards….