get where I want and need to be

is the one thing i struggle most with with this goal.

for instance, my uncomfortable and uncanny stride into a household that thrives upon meat and family oriented activities. i need to leave; i want to leave; but he needs me here. and so here shall i stay. unhappy and unwilling, with a smile on my face.

As a solitary dependent island; as an introverted extrovert; as a humanist with the sole desire to approve and be approved, I feel my quest to being where I want and need to be will be as endless and tiresome as my lifelong quest for happiness. Although hardly boring and strictly unique, the quest has not shown me that “happiness” or “success” are a birthright like we so commonly deceive them to be. The quest is what gets us going, and the quest will continually deceive.

Where you need to be is always where you are.

Where I want and need to be is like a moving target. But that’s not stopping me, oh nonononono.

Because… If the mountain won’t come to Mohammed, Mohammed must go to the mountain.

there.
:D.

12/09 to the pitstop! :)

Even if it means taking a detour.

I’m not exactly sure where it is now that I want and need to be. :( But what I’m sure of is that I’ll eventually end up where I should be, and where they need me to be.

I want to do this so bad. And I want it nowwwww. Nowwwww. Nowwwww.

^mamarosa

Planning the escape! ;)

Coming in 2007!