be happy with who I am

I think that it’s very important to be pleased with yorself, because when you don’t like/(love?) yorself, then you can’t expect from the people that they like/(love?) you..I know it, but I don’t do it..

on how she though i had lost weight . that made me very happy as i’ve been trying hard to both loose weight and tone up (: .

its a journey but its one im willing to take and one i will take with my head held high .

some days i’m good and happy with me . and who i am .
then some days i hate who i am and what i look like and what i wear .

in the prosses of ..
- loosing weight .
- exersizing more .
- getting over my ex .
- and stopping self harming .

i’m happy with my ..
- sexuality .

i want to do more to help change ..
- my skin .
- my hair .
- my body .
- and i want to find who i really am .

i’m gonna write down everything that i’ve liked or that has made me smile that day . then when i’m jelous i can look back at all the amazing things in my life and my friends and family who love me for me (:

i decided that i know who i am. at least vaguely. that was the problem. it wasnt weather or not i loved myself, i just didnt know who i was loving!!
im pretty
im smart
im cute
im skinny (not in a bad way..im healthy)
im fun (finally im fun again)
i think i can mark this done, but i may bring it back, if i start to feel down.

i am going to start looking for a counselor in my area that can help me. i cant do this by myself. i really need someone who isnt at all involved in my life to talk to.
i did it once before when my parents got divorced, and i think it will be much better for me to pour it all out, then to keep it inside.

^_ being happy with yourself and who you are is one of the greatest things in life..right above deep fried twinkies XD

No matter how much money I make
No matter how many friends I have
No matter how many commodities I own
Nothing has yet managed to make me entirely and sustainably happy.
Something is definitely missing in my life and I don’t know what it is. This is why I decided to join you guys to help me discover what that important something is.

I wish you and myself the best of luck

All my love

sexyfellowjn ;)

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