(What is RSS?)was so tensed when i started but,i was aware of my short,rapid breaths and finally listened to my inner voice to slow down. Knew that if i don’t, i’ll probably fail my hazard perception test..guess, it’s only times like that where tension worsens things that i finally listen to my inner voice..will continue to work on this.. as i really want to do well in my driving and my assignments..
It’s really hard to listen to my inner voice when I am studying abroad. So many things to do and sometimes, do find it overwhelming. But, I am finally able to do a little listening today..and am glad that I did cos it saved me a wasted trip and helped me to prioritise what is really important rather than doing whatever seems “urgent”. Learning to slow down and listen again to the song in my heart..
Steps fwd: prayed and was better at staying in the moment. Spent on meaningful gifts rather than stinge. Gave a gift and sent love to a friend who was avoiding me as she was withdrawing from people since crisis struck and she actually responded and said that the letter touched her deeply and helped her. Glad that I did that despite being upset that she did not seem to cherish our friendship which was actually not the case. Double checked rather than assume. Gave priority to health. Rested when tired. Cooked..at last..rather than being lazy. Took action rather than worry. Did things that usu made me uncomfortable. Read online reviews before purchase and saved money.
Minor setbacks: Did things out of paranoia. Gave excuses and delayed the rest needed.
Overall: Good progress. I think i am getting i am getting into the habit of paying attention to my inner voice and increasing my mindfulness :)
Steps fwd: Rested and off tv despite wanting to watch it, took eye breaks, off computer when tired or when tasks are done, did tasks set for the day instead of delaying, chose to ignore superstition and things turned out great, stayed at home to rest when sick, remained positive despite criticisms
Minor setbacks: Gave excuses in learning to cook, allowed negative thoughts to come, didn’t do things I wanted to do.
Overall: Have improved and feel great!
Steps fwd: Used computer within limits, took breaks, studied, remind myself that things are not as urgent as it seems, took action instead of worrying, read, took up the courage to apologise to my friend.
Minor setbacks: Didn’t check my stuff even though there was a nagging thought that I ought to double check and ended up being scolded, gave excuses instead of resting, sent an angry sms that i knew I shouldn’t send, stinge instead of eating proper meals
Overall: Some progress but the same obstacles remain.
Steps forward: Took breaks, cleared the house, relaxed, waited and did what was more urgent rather than become panicky and think that everything is urgent, put up an ad and managed to find a friend who was also going to the same uni, booked my air ticket, asked instead of assuming the price and ended up with good bargains, did not go online when I was running late even though it felt urgent..it turned out that it was already settled and i was worrying for nothing, read a good book.
Minor setbacks: Gave excuses and did not rest when tired, allowed negative thoughts to overwhelm me.
Overall: very good progress and i am getting into the habit of listening instead of talking too much :)
Can’t believe that the second and third weeks were so hectic.. but am glad that keeping a logbook helped me to remain focus on this goal which is affecting my other goals :)
Steps forward: Listened to my inner voice and did the following – focused on teaching well, rested, had positive thoughts, did my studies, prioritize my to-do lists, prayed.
Minor setbacks: didn’t listen to my inner voice – almost booked my airticket out of fear but was stopped by my uncle, engaged in catastrophic thinking, went for a health check as part of visa requirement even when advised against it, gave excuses and did not take a break from computer even when my eyes were hurting, did not dare to bargain even though it was acceptable.
Overall: Though worse than the first week, it was a good effort as it could have been a lot worse given the challenges of the week if i did not set this goal.
Decided to focus on this goal and have kept a logbook to monitor my progress till this becomes a habit by Day 21.
Steps forward:
Listened to inner voice and prayed, took breaks and changed negative thoughts to positive ones, took care of my cracked heel instead of being lazy, appreciated my hair instead of looking for things to complain, made study notes conscientiously, took breaks and off my computer instead of surfing non-stop. Outcome: Felt much happier and had a great time when I am with my friends. :)
Minor setbacks:
Gave excuses and delayed turning off my computer and ending up being late for an appointment, spoke without thinking, continued to surf even though I couldn’t find the things I wanted and was just wasting time. Let a negative thought create fear in me.
Will continue to work on my conscious mind to impress good things upon my subconscious mind.
These days I have so many things on my mind that I cannot really focus on my inner voice telling me that the things perhaps I shouldn’t do somethings. And like always, I am going in circles making mistakes that I have been warned beforehand by my inner voice. It is really frustrating that I keep walking into the hole despite having walked into it many times before. I am sick and tired of this and I will be silent and be in the present moment to get out of this vicious cycle.
taking on TO is dealing with changes!
i’ve ended things with c for good this time and i’m trying to find a way to heal from the miscarriage while most of my friends go through their pregnancies! its really hard to be happy for someone when i know that i would have been looking, acting and feeling like they are!
inner strength and surrounding myself with good people is what i need to do right now!
