Love without fear

At one point or another everyone has been hurt by someone they love, some more than others. It is a necessary and uphill battle to get over this hurt and move on. How can you let someone who hurt you in the past prevent you from experiencing the rush of love you deserve? How can you deprive someone of your love when you have so much to give? I ask myself that nearly every day.

Ok! I don’t fear loving anyone as Friends , Family, colleagues, Animals but a MAN?!!!!!

I am acting a shrink for myself pushing forward, But i always run Backwards waiting in my Shell thinking around my Ex that i gave up geting over him! I am fed up with myself, I even hate seeing new people..

I am talking to myself whenever i have time that is why i am hiding with 2 jobs and one Degree in weekends that i work hard to obtain,
although sometimes that creepy time manage to come to my head and destroy me all over.. That No One will be him in my life.. He made me a Queen and he ran away with no Back note! saying he will not be back ever..

How stupid me & him??

me thinking about him over after all these years over and over and Him dumping such loving heart..

How can i not be afraid .. when the Best i had in my life did that to me?! and How can i go on with other one hunted by all these comparisons in my mind?! Impossible!

sum this up by what ToddieM wrote about one of my entries once:
“I read somewhere (BrianKim.net) that the best way to destroy fear is to build your desire.
Want something bad enough, and fear is irrelevant.”

And when you find out why you were scared or shy at first, it becomes really much simpler to stop it.

I need to step out of the box and not be afraid of everything around me. I am talking to people I usually wouldn’t and comlimenting people on the most random of things. It feels good and I’m getting a better outlook on those around me. I’m beginning to open up to new things and hopefully now I won’t be as afraid of love as I was.

why is love a mystery, a secret, or a maze? why is the topic so sensitive to many people? why does who you like have to be a secret hidden from the world for as long as possible..when you know it’s going to spill sometime or another. are we afraid that people will look at us differently if they knew? or do we just want to have something personal, that only yourself knows about? what do you think love is?

After 15 years together, my H had an affair this time last year. We have been back togeether for 8 months now and he tries so hard. I know i will get to a point where it will be as before but without us doing the things to each other that made us miserable together before. We are doing marriagebuilders which helps. I knowwe will make it. my goal is to be able to say I did it in 1 year and 4 months. (Making 2 years in total)

I’ve found this great guy who appears to be crazy about be and I’m sure I’m crazy about him too… We know each other for a year, he tried to be with me for like 6 months until I finally realized I wanted to be with him too… and now we’re together…
It all sounds great, except I’m kind of afraid of being called by “his girlfriend” it’s stupid I know… I know we’re dating, he knows about my fear, he’s patient, all he cares about is being with me… and still I don’t know why I feel this way… Maybe it’s because I’ve never really been with anyone and this time it feels serious, but I don’t wanna screw this up because I’m afraid… I’m gonna let time tell this one…

Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

W.B. Yeats

audaces fortuna iuvat or fortes fortuna iuvat -
Fortune favours the brave

Based on the recommendations of others, I’ve ordered The Path to Love by Deepak Chopra. I’ve never read any of his books before but the description really resonated with me.
There’s something blocking my ability to fully experience intimacy, and I’ve worked on it a lot in the past with therapists. I’m not sure it’s “fear” as the goal says, but it something(s) and I’m really ready to move past it!