trust someone completely

I’d like to return to the feeling you have as a child when you don’t even understand the concept of doubt, your trust for the people close to you is so absolute and unwaivering…

But now I want to have that trust with my eyes open, my naivete gone… I want to see if its possible to have a relationship that is open and loving to the point that there is no place for doubt

Not yet.

Got it! It’s not about trusting someone else.
It’s about trusting myself, and specially trusting my own judgement of people im.. trying to trust?

Cos when you have bad experiences bout someone not being trusrworthy, you often start to blame yourself that why didnt you see you were being scrwd over?
That makes you lose trust on your own judgement, therefore lose trust on yourself?

So, I gotta be the one i trust completely.

Ok hmm, this realization didnt really help :D

I really doubt that i can ever manage to do this.
Also i dont know how :/

Ok.
Might have a go on this one (once again..)
Might be the hardest thing to do though..

but at least im gonna try and give myself a chance.

Hi peoples. Okay I haven’t really been working on this goal at all but I’ve given myself a deadline. Starting today til 10/2008. I’ going to give up the reigns an practice trusting in others. Lets see how this goes k.

i can do this when i find somebody worthy of it.

i jst tried it again
i trusted someone nd they let me down

im not gonna do this
evrytime i fully trust someone with evrything they let me down

i trusted mi friend with everythin then she just started being a bitch to me nd went round tellin evryone

she didnt even care that she was runining mi life
thn i cut open 1 of mi veins nd took an overdose

it didnt kill me though
it should hav

Ashamedly I feel deep inside me that I don’t deserve to be loved, therefore I also feel that why should anybody be totally loyal and trustworthy to me.
Even if I know people who I can trust completely my own insecurities stop me.
I believe if I can get past this It will be one of my greatest achievements, and so it will also undoubtedly be one of the hardest.
Maybe It could be said that I don’t trust myself?

Has anybody done this or can anybody help me?

I trust Coco completely. I’ve known her all my life, she has no tricks, and she doesn’t want to have. She’s more spontanous, and she sucks more, too, lol ;), but we’re made of the same wood that’s called integrity. She’s never repeated what I asked her not to repeat. She never forced me to say whatever her or… no blackmail, no ultimatum, no condition to her friendship. She’s just like she is.