be perfect

Throughout your comments on this goal (thank you!), I realized that I didn’t even know what this goal was about.

I knew I’ll never be perfect but I wanted to get close. Thing is: there are things I do (and shouldn’t) that I don’t want to give up.
I’m a girl but I love computers; so what? Does that make me a geek? So what?

I’d rather concentrate on important things; things that matter—> being okay with who I am.

Tonight, I :
- took a shower
- washed my hair + exfoliated
- straighten it out and put it into a perfect ponytail
- played with my cat
- had a quite healthy dinner
- wrote an email I had promised to send
- called a few people and was cheerful and polite
- brushed my teeth and flossed

I do not want to be perfect but there are these people who:
- Are pretty/beautiful/charming
- Are smart
- Have that special something (singing, playing the piano, being a athlete…)
- Have a girlfriend/boyfriend
- Wash their hair three times a week
- Do not procrastinate
- Do not like junk food
- Do not mumble when they speak
- Have confidence
- Are not so self-conscious
- ...

And the list goes on …

I am stupid right. it’s impossible to be perfect but anyway, if I could, I would:

Have more confidence
Be close to perfect
Study harder fo a good future and job
Love myself/have a high self esteem
Be happy
Not care what every-one thinks about me

Getting a Wii Fit soon, I know, they’ve been out a while, but I haven’t managed to get hold of one. Over Christmas I’m gonna be exercising like crazy on it, probably 1 1/2 hours – 2 hours. I’m gonna get to 95 before May, when I go on holiday.
I’m trying to find another way of styling other than straightening that won’t be as damaging to my hair. Yeah, it might not help get it back to prfect condition, but as long as my heated curlers aren’t as bad as my GHD’s then everything’s ok with me =)
I might start saving up for a spray tan, but only probs gonna get that before my holiday. I’ve also started taking multivitamins and I have to say, my skin has improved. Just gotta keep at it! The only thing stopping me from marking this off my goals is my weight! I’m gonna lose 37 pounds! I have to!

Really trying hard at Uni, and achieving well.
Taking good care of my health.
Being the cool, chilled person (I really am inside) more often than not.
Taking care of my family and friends.
& Being satisfied with what I have :)

Like i know 100% perfection is impossible because everyone has different views but i have my idea which is:
To be 120lbs. (I’m 5’8)
To be tanned.
Clear skin.
Be a nicer person.
Good grades.
Nice nails.
Be pretty.
Be fashionable.
Be Happy.
Stop purging.
Stop cutting.
Less selfish.
Better person.
Exercise daily.
Nice bedroom.
Nicer hair.
Confident.
Boyfriend.

Yup all of which are possible.

So, these were my goals:
Get to 95 pounds
Get perfect skin
Get a tan
Get rid of the dark circle lines under my eyes
Tone up a bit
Have nicer hair
Get better confidence
And buy lots of nice clothes

The tan I’m only gonna get when summer comes around again, next week I’m working out everyday on my exercise bike, lose some pounds and help tone up; I’ve started to develop a sleep routine, and strayed away from fatty junk foods so I’m getting closer to my goals of 95 and getting better skin. I’m also saving up my money for loads of clothes, and I am going to stay away from the straighteners in the autumn holiday. Yay, week off school soon!

Perfect

I’m doing ok. I spent a long time yesterday trying to get rid of all the blackheads on one side of nostril (too much info, lol =P) and I actually got rid of quite a few, but now I’ve kinda got a little scratch on it for some reason. I bought some new foundation, it covers really well, so it makes my skin look a bit better, but it’s bringing my face out in spots, but I’m gonna recover over the weekend =]
Fasting today, loose a little bit of weight from a big binge yesterday, and hopefully detox my body. My dark circles, I can’t do anything about them, because I’ve developed a sleep routine for the first time ever, and I’m getting between 8 1/2 – 9 hours sleep a night, yet still have these really deep lines along my cheek bones, and I’m still a teenager!
I guess I’ll just have to wait until I’m 18 to get a laser to remove the lines.