trust God

I think that trusting in God is what is going to help me accomplish all of my goals. Sometimes I panic and don’t do what I know is right for my life because I lack confidence in myself and in God. Learning to trust God needs to be a priority in my life.

So, I surrender and I will keep my hand out of the cookie jar.

I have trusted God alwys and He has never let me down

This is an ongoing goal for me. Every once in a while I am reminded that God has a planned route for my life, if I would only hand over the steering wheel and relax! I say I want to do God’s will, but practicing that is much harder than it saying it. For instance, I keep applying for new jobs because I am tired of mine, even though I believe God is nudging me toward one particular job that I just need to be patient for.

I didnt hear my meditation on Patience. But I felt better, I want to listen to it tonight. I had a different point of view, i feel with a new point of view about everything, even music that i am listening is happier, I hope the storm is gone, i hope to see the brightest sky, and the most beautiful sun, surroungind us. I hope this coming year, is a year of evolution, a year of peace, a year of love, a year of compassion, a year of enlightenment.

Has helped me last few days, with his meditation on patience. My frien Diana called me yesterday to tell me that she read a phrase and thought of me ” be the change you wish to see in the world” and the funny thing i have a painting with that phrase in my apartment. BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN WORLD.

Let the hand of God work for you. YB

I am trying to find you, among subway rides, betweenfaces that I dont know, bewtween negative, positive, and neutral thoughs, I am trying to find you. I am trying to…
I want to learn how to, If I have to go through thisfeelings like I am doing now, feeling down, depressed, I think this is the right thing for me now. Everything happens at the right time. I ask youfor guidance, to show me the easiest exit of this circle of thoughs. I ask youfor strenght toovercome negative patterns, toreceive life with open arms, and as Y.B said stop chasing aroung, concencrate, consolidate, be me.
But I need the strenght the courage not togiv eup, not togive up, and keep walking, keep smiling.

I feel I am falling. I feel I am loosing perspective of things, relationships, intentions, goals in life. In certain way I do feel I am loosing time and life. Last few months I became a work maching, putting a lot of pressure on me, like I usually do, i ended up accomplishing everything that I wanted, but I am unhappy. I am not reailzed as a person. I am not spiritual enlightened, but I am phisically exhausted, emotionally empty, and feel like s..t.
God is there, I am here, he wont reach for me, I have to reach for him, in order to put myself together. I know things that I have to change, I am trying my best. But I dont know how sure I am of doing things right, or being in the right place.
I do miss my family, danny an I not always connect even though I love him, and I wish things were different, trying not to feel guilty. I am thinking and feeling God a little closer, specially when you realize for how long you forgot about god, thinking more in ego, statements, ccards, and distractions.
I know I dont have to ask forgivenes, love is unconditional, But I do have to forgive myself, and encourage myself to keep Up.

Just a thought!

I’ve been trusting God’s placement and use of Stephen in my life… though I know not his plan I trust that He has one.