truly forgive the people that have hurt me

not forgiving is like giving the people that hurt you their undeserved satisfaction. but i still don’t think that you should forget. you need to be smart. you can’t just live on & let them walk over you all over again. be strong & forgive, but never forget.

sent me a Valentine’s Day card this year for Valentine’s Day!

I thought that it was really sweet!
She does not usually send me a card.

And she took me out to lunch on Sunday, it was her treat!
We had a great lunch together!

I hope this is a sign of a better relationship!

My MoM took me to lunch & it was her treat!

That was really nice of her!
And she took me to one of my favorite places to eat!

One person in my life truly sucks right now.

They are almost guaranteed to let me down.
No matter how many chances I give them.

I am so trying to make the best of a bad situation!

I am working on improving me!
I will express myself!
I will stand up for myself!
For me!

& upset with someone who claims to love me.

Last night they said something offensive to me.
I pretty much said that was rude.
They walked away as if nothing had happened.
Which made me angry & more upset about the situation.

I didn’t want to fight about it.
I didn’t get an apology.
But I did let it be known that I didn’t want to be treated that way.

Needless to say I went to sleep with my feelings hurt.
And feeling confused about the whole thing.

”..I need to forgive myself.. my guilt is getting the best out of me.. I have to accept my mistakes and move on so that I can have the courage to also forgive others.. to understand that people are not perfect, and like me, we all have done wrong.. no matter how bad we thought we have been.. I think the most important part of this realization is that I am really sorry for what I did.. and that I am willing to do my best to pay for that.. and eventhough others whom have hurt me don’t say sorry nor ask for my forgiveness.. I have to be open to the fact that they too are having a hard time forgiving themselves.. healing is a process.. it takes time.. but I know that pain teaches us to be humble and to be compassionate to the hurts of others.. after all, we are only human.. we need to be forgiven as well as to forgive..”

with my Mom right now.

She’s family.
I love her.
But she is very hard to deal with.

I know this is vague.
Maybe I will go into more details later, but this is all I have for now.

with my Dad on the phone today!

We had a nice conversation.
We talked for about a half hour, which is a long time for us.

He asked how I was doing.
Told me he loved me!
That was really nice to hear!

Hopefully I will see him sometime this week!

Lunch with my Mom today her treat!
That was nice!

Conversation was a little bit awkward.
But no arguing or conflict!

We spent quite a bit of time together!
And the day ended on a good note!

I hope this happens more often!
Fingers crossed.

I had a great time with my Mom today!

Yay to no conflict or arguments!

She even invited me to lunch tomorrow, her treat!
That’s awfully kind of her!

I really like it when we actually get along!