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Tigerman is an INFP, ISTJ, ISFP, ENTP... depending on the day of testing

Hmm 4 months ago

This goal got the most cheers of all of mine.

What I want to know is, do people cheer this because they really want me to do this, or because they want to do it themselves? Or because its just a cool idea?

Comments might make me happy… ;)



echelonkidd is sifting through her memories.

um, 13 months ago

this goal is officially retarded.

How do you actually notice when this is done? It’s not exactly possible anyways. Everyone’s gonna have their bad times. I do. I’m happy with my life at the moment, but there are always going to be days when I’m not going to be. So I guess I can tick this off now. I’m not complaining about my life. I’m not depressed. I’m okay. I really am.



Tigerman is an INFP, ISTJ, ISFP, ENTP... depending on the day of testing

I remember... 14 months ago

I got a catalog in the mail today, unexpectedly, which had something on the cover of it that made me smile… a really wide smile, the kind that if it goes on for a long time, it makes your face ache.
I remember being in that state of happiness, so blessed to almost be embarrassed by it… on a very good day, long, long ago. I think it lasted all day, more or less, back then… I find it hard to imagine waking up like that and continuing being happy all day again. But I guess it could happen…



Untitled 15 months ago

Nothing could be better than being able to wake up and find myself truly happy. I’m sure I still have to worry about the other things (school, work, money, friends, family etc.) but knowing that I am happy and content with myself helps substantially in succeeding



echelonkidd is sifting through her memories.

whatever. 16 months ago

This doesn’t interest me anymore. It’s lost its meaning to me. I don’t even understand it.

So I’m leaving this on hold for now.



echelonkidd is sifting through her memories.

*frustration* 17 months ago

At this point in time, I don’t think there’s a point in even trying to do this.

UGH!! This just makes me want to SCREAM!

I just can’t catch a fucking break!

RAWR!



echelonkidd is sifting through her memories.

I think. 18 months ago

That I am almost ready to tick this off.

There’s just one more thing holding me back.

Just one.



Tigerman is an INFP, ISTJ, ISFP, ENTP... depending on the day of testing

Its a hard hard life 18 months ago

I don’t think this is getting any more likely to happen anytime soon, maybe not for the rest of my life. Too many things that I used to “live for” are gone, discontinued, illegal, or unavailable. All my friends have gone away, they simply won’t answer my calls or emails. I’ve already gone through the angry stage as i felt it happening, now i’m slipping into despair… and even when i thought i could be happy, i had that little feeling, that it would all end too soon. I’d need a complete mindwipe and go back in time 20 years to even get a chance to be deep down happy. :( :(



echelonkidd is sifting through her memories.

If only... 18 months ago

I was just so fucking close.

There is no fucking way this is happening for a long time yet.



echelonkidd is sifting through her memories.

Okay... 19 months ago

I am so close. Just so close. & yet I am just so far away at the same time. I could say that I’m happy right now, and I wouldn’t be lying, because I am. But I always get this little feeling in my stomach, almost every day. A feeling of sadness & loneliness. A feeling like something’s missing. And I know what is missing, but I’m afraid that I’m just never going to be able to get that back.



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