I decided my life sucks and am trying to take it apart in hopes of putting it back together again better than it has ever been. I have discovered a key theme throughout my life is my fragility. I unconsciously expect someone to hold my hand through everything. (and I know God does but it is awful hard sometimes to really feel his presence) I don’t feel like I am capable of doing a lot. I want to be brave and strong. I want to boldly face my problems and see them as avenues to prove Jesus is Lord instead of dead ends. I want to learn to control my anxiety when the feeling of being alone and helpless overwhelms me. I don’t know if this is a co-dependent thing but I just feel like running home to mommy every time the going gets tough. I just don’t know how to cope alone.
How to be a stronger person
How I did it: I'm pretty certain that I've reached this goal. I stand up for myself more, speak my mind more, and don't take as much crap as I used to.
Which all feels pretty awesome. I'm afraid I might be growing to be a little *too* blunt.. but that's okay. :D I'll work on easing it up if I feel it's necessary. Haha.
Also... recently things have happened that.. I'm not sure I could've made it through if it weren't for strength, I guess. It feels weird to admit that about myself, but... I do feel like a strong person.
I feel happy, like I can conquer anything. :D
And I guess the best feeling to come out of all of it, is that... I feel proud of myself.<3
I don't think I ever really did before. I always relied on others to feel proud of me. And well, becoming stronger, even with the help of my friends and amazing family... makes me proud.
I don't know. I guess that sounds kind of lame. Haha.
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well, how should i start…... i feel like im a very weak person and i let people get to me a lot… like my ex.. we were going out for a long t ime i gave him everything and i did everything i had… but i wanted to go out he would go out with his friends and i would always stay home and i never went with him… things were good in the start but now they are do bad we were going out for 3years and everytime i tell him to leave he always seems to hold me back and i end up staying with him… i dont know if we are going out or together…. i feel like hes using me…. he come when he pleases and go’s… he tells me that he loves me but he doesnt want to hear me out i want to be a stronger person and tell him stop and stop or really start to work things out….
i want to be a stronger person… stand my ground….
Jessica Is in Port Angeles visiting my Family:)
I let people walk all over me most of the time. I’m always putting others first and myself last. I want to be strong enough to put myself first sometimes and not feel bad about it. I deserve to be happy too:)
mlt1 ..::WISHING FOR MORE THAN LIFE IS WILLING TO GIVE::..
i realized today looking at my goals that i had become stronger. i am less vulnerable, but now when i should be upset i just kinda shut down. some days im just emotion-less.zombie-like, you know? it scares me.
so much has happened in the past year i guess i had to get stronger. ive changed so much since this time 2007 but i miss the little girl i used to be.
Sandie is chill
I am becoming a little stronger as time goes by. A couple nights ago this girl was feeding me my lines on the wrong que, not helping me at all, bullying my nephew around (whose only 5) and just ticking me off all day. On stage (I’m in a play btw) we were rehearsing when she would start to feed me my lines and I kept my anger in and just kept into character and let it ride by. When a cigarette break came around I walked outside with my sister and vented all my frustration out and cried. I want to control the crying thing a little more because I’m super sensitive and I hate it but I mamaged not to let my emotions control the situation and it felt good by the end.
i completely agree with you. i feel like i have to someone in my life to make me happy
intothebreach Did not fall off the face of the earth, but came close
Hi, Can you be strong without a fear of death? I have become so terrifyed of death, not my own but the death of the people I care about. Can you be strong knowing that all could fall around you? My own life matters little, but I am scared about my family. How could I be strong if I am worryed about things I can not control?
