Make the most of my time

Although I’ve not been well for the past few months I am certainly achieving this. Most of the time spent doing mindless activities has been though a need to unwind and relax so I feel I can justify them. I’ve been enjoying walking places instead of taking the car which now only means less time for computer games it gets me motivated and in the mood to do more.

The past three days this has been rather easy due to family commitments including early starts, cleaning and a wedding. So for three days I’ve actually seen the morning and been busy most of the day. Now I just have to maintain this mood when I don’t have to do things for other people.

I had a bit of a wait in town today after finishing all the things I had to do but needing to wait to pick up my photos. Decided on the spur of the moment to visit the little art gallery in town as I hadn’t been there in many years. Felt good taking the time to appriciate something in my own area. Has motivated me to get out and see some other things before I leave again.

Despite not getting any sleep last night I decided to get up early this morning and make a start on the day. I’d forgotten how much I enjoyed the early morning, I’ve got something more to motivate me now. Couldn’t believe how much I got done just in the time I’d normally be asleep. I’m onto a winner here I think. Once I got started it was easy to keep doing things and as a result I’m closer to achieving some of my other goals now.

I am unemployed and awaiting the start of my uni course in a few months. I spend most of my day playing mindless games on the computer when I could be doing any number of things on my list.

I never ever get to the end of the day happy of how I managed my time during the day? It’s not that I’m hard with myself, I really lose sooooooo much time. Well, it’s not that I lose time, simply I am lazy. Not exactly lazy, though, i can be very active, the problem is I love to do certain things (reading, sleeping, thinking, making plans for journeys, cultivating new ideas for articles, taking care of plants, walking aroung, exploring the surroundings) that are not exactly what i am supposed to be doing. Then I feel guilty, well, just a bit guilty, because I always enjoy taking time for myself and my thoughts.
Perhaps the problem is that i don’t really want to become a super efficient person, because i’m afraid I would lose sight of what I really care for.

i’m excellent at doing this, i just need to get better at it and quicker. stick to it i guess. this is one of those ongoing goals. which most of mine are. i’ve accomlpished so much already, by myself, alone i mean, that all i wanna do now is related to another. in a nutshell.

i have been procrasting on this for so long, but today i finally sat down and finished reworking my website. thats what i did all day, and now its finished and i am so excited about this. yay go me!