have more good days

I know shit happens. The trick is to keep breathing. Nothing is permanent, not even super-shitty days. Everything goes back to center, just keep breathing, keep the faith and things will be alright once again.

That was yesterday. One of my niggling fears came true. I won’t go into too much details, suffice to say it got me so down I was about ready to incapacitate myself in self-pity. My only salvation.. a phone call letting me know that my nephew was being hospitalized for bronchitis. Nothing severe, but he needed the nebulizer every 2 hours, so being admitted was the most practical thing to do. Fussing over him took my mind off the shitty afternoon, then I had friends over who needed to copy my collection of Grey’s Anatomy. By the time my head hit the pillow, I was too tired to even recall the crummy details. Sigh.. I swear the “fun” never stops.

I almost got my ass fried a few days ago, no thanks to a near mishap which could’ve rendered our entire email server useless. The RAID5 had one disk defunct. After replacing it, the RAID rebuilt but the data was gone! 60GB of email data disappeared into thin air.

Fortunately, the engineer had one last trick up his sleeve. He used a tool to rebuild the entire RAID array without initializing the disks and we got all our data back. I was beyond grateful.

That episode made me lost sleep and the next day I still came to work. We were on alert mode but luckily it was smooth sailing from thereon. I meant to go home after lunch but got stuck with work so I lasted the entire day purely on some kind of adrenaline. That night I zonked out almost comatose.

I’m still groggy somewhat, takes me a few days and nights of proper sleep to get that out of my system. But I can function as normal so other than the occasional queasiness, I’m pretty much okay. But that nightmare was definitely near horrific. Yes, we’ve suffered similar mishaps before but somehow, I don’t see myself going through another one, God help me. I wonder if this is my life, if I want to continue having this kind of worry hanging over my head. Yeah, I know.. we can do a lot more to secure our data (maybe swap to RAID1, etc) but I can’t help but wonder, do I still want to do this?

^{I don’t know if this post matches the goal but I’ll let this one slide..}

I had a KM conference and got to meet many interesting folks with a common passion for KM. We swapped war stories, experiences and KM-related goals and techniques. It was very reassuring as well as refreshing to meet others who believe in KM too and I’m planning to hold a few sessions with some of them to get their feedback on our KM project and see how we can share resources to fuel our mutual progress.

The conference was held at the Berjaya Times Square which had several fabulous stores including my personal favourite, Borders! I found two books related to my lifehacker goal and spent some time flipping through pages and taking down notes (erm.. nobody mind I think). I also found the perfect birthday gift for my dad which as a comilation CD of the Everly Brothers essential hits. My dad’s fave, among others, was the Lightning Express. That song was featured in the compilation too and for a double CD album, the price was a steal! Indeed, my dad was pleased as cheese when I gave it to him.. :D

The night was spent, supposedly with the aim of hitting the sack early. But I end up chatting with a dear friend instead. No regrets there. While yakking away via YM, I tested a few apps for my Nokia E65 and found that I could install a few games and cool themes! I am game-less no more!

Do they really work, coz if they do, I need one..pronto!

I’ve been having a series of unfortunate events lately and I seem to be having a tougher time coping. Feels like every step I take, I’m dodging some kind of landmine. I know it’s unhealthy to think this way but that’s what it feels like.

Normally when I feel this way I tend to stay indoors and kinda sleep away this jinxy feeling. But I can’t afford to do that today so I have to be out and about, I just wish I could shake off this bad juju feel.

Must not let this get the better of me, perhaps living fearlessly isn’t just about adrenaline-charged endeavours, but to also venture out and carry on even when my whiny gut feel say otherwise.

Maybe it is that easy, like ordering food at a restaurant. Unless of course, the orders get mixed up and you get the wrong thing.. not that it happens to me that often.

So anyway, I shall have a good day today! There, said it. I read last night that our subconscious mind think in the present terms. So one can’t say I will have a good day.. or I will lose some weight.. coz willing it alone won’t cut it. Thus it’ll be I shall.. I am.. I do!

It was hard jump-starting my engines for the new week. I was tired, irritable and my body ached all over. But I took it one hour at a time. Did what I need to do, called a few people, made conversation. Lunch was on a friend who is somewhat indebted to me, that was nice, and we had Japanese food, a welcoming change.

The afternoon was spent on my KM project and that kept me preoccupied, didn’t have much time to gripe. When it was time to go home, I was relieved! Yeah, it was one of those Mondays, but I survived.

Shopped for groceries, cleaned up my room.. decided a reward was due. So I drove to the mall about 20 minutes away and watched Ghost Rider. Enjoyed it thoroughly. Came home to find my uncle and aunt who are staying for the night. Had tea and a bunch of food. Expecting more company tonight for dinner, no sweat (thank God I’ve shopped for groceries!). Spent 40 minutes on the bike while I watched a concert featuring my beloved Muse. Sang and cheered like I was actually there!

Tired, money well spent (on a flick & popcorn) and now looking forward to a cozy evening with my cousins and nephews.

^{To think I was worried about how bored I was gonna be..pffttt}

..in the form of a flat tyre, in the middle of Monday rush hour traffic, on one of the busiest highways in KL, with the rain pouring down in full force!

Breathe.. breathe..

An hour later, the mechanics arrived (I swear I’ll learn how to change a flat trye after this!), but my spare tyre is almost flat too. I managed to drive to the nearest petrol station, drove up to that thing you use to pump your tyres (the actual term eludes me right now), but no air would go in. It was still flat!

Breathe.. breathe..

Called the mechanic again. He drove up with another colleague, jacked up the car and only then would the air go in. But he didn’t like the look of that spare tyre. Asked me to take a detour at a nearby workshop and maybe, check to make sure it’s OK, else I might not last the ride home. So I did. I drove up to a place I’ve never been before, with the rain still pouring down in angry torrents. Finally found the tyre place and the guy looked at it, checked the pressure on all four tyres, and said I was good to go. He didn’t even charge me for it. Finally, a good break..

I got home, more tired than anything, but proceeded to eat dinner while engaging my dad in conversation. Yes, he nagged me about not knowing how to change a flat tyre, so we’re all getting a crash course this weekend.. :P

Now, I’m just hot, tired and looking forward to a nice long bath. Seriously, I’m sleeping early tonight. I need to get this curve ball out of my system. But more than anything, I’m just glad I got home safely.

..but this has got to be the icing of the cake.. Gosh, I had a really good laugh over this.. Matt, I wanna marry u.. haha..

Warning: Beware bad language.. :P

Muse.. what happens when they’re drunk=