Went to get my visa renewed today. Should have it soon provided all the processing goes smoothly. 4 days ago

How do you actually have to go out about this?? Idea’s please! 1 month ago

1) Read a novel for class (skimmed, but it was intelligent reading)
2) Met a prospective M.A. student for lunch
3) Did my budget for the month of April
4) Got a couple of loads of laundry done
5) Exercised
6) Refined my lesson
7) Graded presentations, essays and quizzes
8) Cleaned my bathroom, vacuumed
9) Slept a full 8 hours

In the last 24 hours. 1 month ago

I know that I wasted precious weekends, evenings, long breaks not writing my paper. Part of it is because I have gotten into the habit into putting things off until the last minute, but part of it was also because I was frightened. Frightened that my thesis didn’t make sense, that it was irrelevant, trite, that I couldn’t write any better than I had.

However, after integrating my advisor’s revisions into my introduction and seeing her feedback on the second version, I realized that I CAN write better and that my ideas do make sense, when I take time to review the way they are expressed. 1 month ago

I need to tabulate, enumerate the things that keep me burning. I need to strengthen the muscles of my superego— surprisingly so, considering how binding it was just a few short years ago— by learning the responses I have to certain “abusable” stimuli. I am currently listening to Shostakovich’s neo-WTC and it is making me anxious, though I am infinitesimally ignited— incited— by Tatiana Nicoleyeva. Switching to Brahms 118/5 isn’t helping either.

I admit that I am here even considering this after stalking the cute vines of a certain KC James, whose perfect scruff and boyish face meant my own disturbing envy. But this is a harnessable skill that I have sought since HS. I have to change the Brahms; now is not the time.

The Bolero from Moulin Rouge. Movie soundtracks— movies themselves, even— would be on this list. KC James is, embarrassingly, on this list. Smooth jazz and The Shins Radio on Pandora, is on this list. (In general, music I shouldn’t be listening to is on this list.)

I need to want to do what I want to do. Damn, what a splitting sentence! There are literally two of me. I know this isn’t anything novel, this idea of the divided brain has been around for a century now and for the whole of my late youth. But this is timewasting in itself, purely journaling here.

Using 43things itself is a way to stay focused, obviously. It is motivating and igniting.

Okay, to wrap this up I’ll enumerate a small list:

• Movies
• Movie soundtracks
• Tumblr posts, haha
• 43things
• Pandora
• Listography, lists in general
• Water

• Facebook
• GRINDR! haha embarr
• Instagram
• Classical music, unfortunately
• Eating
• ... resistance.

Do you understand? Damn. 1 month ago

“Time you enjoy wasting is not wasted.” ~ John Lennon 2 months ago

Ugh. I have about 19 pages of my QP (out of 3) written but I really rushed it tonight. And ended up skipping my seminar today because I was so tired. I must work on typing up citations, writing short paragraphs and doing the work of integrating these into what I have already for about 1-2 hours for the next few days to meet my Friday deadline. 2 months ago

I wasted a lot of time this week, which means that although I got my papers in on time, one was not good (too rushed, not well thought-out) and the other was not a good as it could have been. And it means that I am spending a good part of the week-end churning out 10 pages of QP. 2 months ago

I made a work plan, and stuck to it, more or less. I got the “little things” that needed to be done out of the way, at times when I otherwise might have just done nothing. 2 months ago

-Facebook
-Excessive TV/entertainment
-Re-hashing past moments from which there is no lesson to be drawn
-Re-living anger/frustration
-Talking too much: gossiping, saying nothing of value. This includes facebook posts, e-mails, messages, phone calls and texts.
-Living in the future: Focusing too much on creating lists, spending so much time on 43Things/Pinterest visualizing (which IS important!) and PROCRASTINATING the ACTION itself. 3 months ago