CloverFoxx its not getting what you want. its wanting what youve got
cheated on friday… a week ago. had one. body rejected it immediately. then had one single hit monday night (after i had started the meds)
i dont get the cravings anymore, and even eddy has stopped offering me hits. so i should be in the clear. im calling this a win.
Nov 04, 02:51PM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments
So I’m getting patches on Wednesday. I feel I am making excuses to smoke and it’s troubling how addicted I am! Darn! :(
Oct 31, 03:55PM PDT | 1 cheer | 1 comment
Oct 28, 05:49PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
CloverFoxx its not getting what you want. its wanting what youve got
and im over the second bump of the withdrawal. eddy keeps trying to buy me packs. they sit in my car and stare at me while i drive, but ive been good.
now when eddy wants a regular instead of a menthol, theres some there for him and im still not paying for his or issac’s smoking.
Oct 25, 02:42PM PDT | 0 comments
I haven’t had a cigarette in 6 days. I stopped smoking when my withdrawal symptoms from my antidepressents stopped. I told myself I didn’t need them anymore and that I can do it. I still crave them like crazy. Its weird because when I don’t have them, all I can think about is how nice it would be to just have one. Then once I get it, I will take a couple puffs and then wonder why I was craving it so badly. They taste horrible, stink and its a digusting habit. Hopefully I can keep going. I’m really trying very hard at this.
Oct 22, 06:58AM PDT | 2 cheers | 1 comment
Finishing this pack and starting a workout regimen tomorrow. I hate feeling so dependent on something so toxic to me. Gosh darn it, I’m going to make this happen and happen NOW. Writing this is my way of being accountable. Woot!
Oct 20, 11:46AM PDT | 2 cheers | 0 comments
CloverFoxx its not getting what you want. its wanting what youve got
its been… 3 days. this is the fourth.
went all day at work yesterday without one. felt incredibly proud of myself. randy and alley kept making fun for my twitching out and talking and talking and talking.
apparantly part of my withdrawal is not being able to SHUT UP.
Oct 20, 06:47AM PDT | 2 cheers | 0 comments
CloverFoxx its not getting what you want. its wanting what youve got
i smoked one half of one cigarette after going all day without.
i couldnt finish it. it doesnt taste right anymore. my body is ready for me to quit, now i just have to convince my mind.
to help
i gave my dad the rest of my pack
i was going to give it to eddy or issac, but i can not afford to hold onto them any longer.
Oct 17, 03:10PM PDT | 0 comments
CloverFoxx its not getting what you want. its wanting what youve got
so i really need to if im going to get on this medicine. cause theres already a pretty high risk factor of clotting, even in non smokers. and my dr will pull me off of the meds if she finds out i didnt really quit.
so
im going to leave my pack at home tonight when i go into work. and see how badly i want to kill someone in the 8 hours i will be without nicotine.
and see if i can keep myself from smoking before i go to bed.
if i can, ill try and go tomorrow during work without smoking.
if i can do that, ill make it through the afternoon. one day part at a time. if i keep busy.. and hydrated.. and buy gum…
Oct 16, 12:39PM PDT | 0 comments
So apparently going out to a club with friends is not a good way to stop smoking. When you’re tipsy and your tipsy friend casually asks you if you want to join them for a smoke outside, the “Stop Smoking” goal is the farthest thing from your mind. I gave in on Saturday and smoked a couple with my friend. Then I craved one all day on Sunday but never indulged. I’m good today and the cravings are gone so hopefully I can stick to it since I won’t be going out for a while.
Oct 12, 06:54AM PDT | 0 comments