learn Tai Chi

i have heard that this is a good way to improve balance. i REALLY need to do improve my balance. i have heard that ballet is also a good way to achieve better balance, but i don’t think i am the ballerina type.

is helping me remember how the arms and torso move. When I’m not sure how to move my arms for a form, I ask myself which moves make for graceful flow. And then I can figure out the right moves.

... and I was noticeably lithe in my movements the next day. Is the connection valid?
I will do this routine more often and observe what happens after.

I took a break of several months while other aspects of my life took precedence. I’m glad to be taking it again. I hope to learn to “Be mindful” at any time. I know I need to do that in order to quell the compulsiveness that is always close to the surface.
I found my notes from before. Looking forward to reviewing them over the next few days.

I haven’t been practicing, or attending other classes. I had also missed the previous two weeks.

I pushed myself to go to class by telling myself that just attending class was enough to consider myself as making progress, because in my previous attempts, I have dropped out at an earlier point in class.

But midway through the class, my negative emotions broke through. Thoughts like:
“I don’t deserve to be here.”
“I am just confusing the other people in class.”

Tears streamed down my face, and it took self-control to continue trying to continue with the routine. I ignored the tears, focused on the form, and did not give in to the urge to flee from the gym.

I went along to a class run by the Taoist Tai Chi Society. It was well organised and presented. The Society is almost completely run by volunteers, including the teachers. The monthly sub is reasonable, and allows you to attend wherever they have a class. Learned a lot of moves in my first lesson. Looking forward to more now!

I went to class Tuesday, but I was late again. I feel like I am forgetting more and more of the steps. But I am thinking of going to another class that just started this month.

...but I don’t make enough in my current job to afford lessons. I have a DVD I’m learning from, but I realize this will leave me with bad habits I’ll have to unlearn one day.
But I’ll be positive. I’m searching for a better job and after that I can get real lessons and hopefully, they won’t look too harshly on my terrible video-taught form.

So far, we are a little past what they call “the first third” of the form. I have tried these classes before, and have always dropped out. But now the center has moved, and I only need to take one bus to get there. So I have been making fewer excuses. Also, in the past, I have started classes in fall and winter.

I still have not been doing much practice between my weekly classes.

This is something I have been procrastinating with. I have a DVD that I want to get down some basics then Ill move to a class. This is something that makes me feel balanced and calms me when Im stressed. So its something that I want to keep in my life and practice.