do my morning pages every morning

My interim goal is to do my morning pages every morning for the month of August.

it helps to keep a clear mind and focus on current tasks. before i used to think too much in the morning, which often ended up in a lie-in. now i’m doing fine. after three weeks of practice i’ll tick teh goal as done.

i’ll see if it helps anything because my heads been a mess of thoughts lately.

NEW CHALLENGE.

well… new consequence rather.
If I don’t do my morning pages every morning, at least through the 31st… I will not be able to purchase any clothing item (including accessories or shoes) for the entire month of June.

I’m not giving up on this goal. I’m just going to modify the challenge exchange… because I’m actually broke right now.. and unfortunately can’t realistically afford to make $20 untouchable each time I mess up… And I feel guilty and inefficient pretending like I’m going to transfer it later when I DO have the money.

But… I haven’t decided what the consequence should be instead….....
What kind of consequences do other people have for their challenges?

So I almost skipped my morning pages today. Then I realized that I would only have $19 left in my bank account (because of my challenge) if I did that…
the motivating power of money.

my second slip up since I made this challenge. Granted it was because I stayed up until 6:30am… then slept till 3pm… so my inner clock was a tad bit thrown off… but still. Another day absent of morning pages.. and another $20 untouchable.

I actually did not feel super fabulous today either.. and it DEFINITELY could be contributed to the shitty sleeping schedule.. but the morning pages have also become a bit of a habit.. I wonder if the absence of those this morning contributed to my mood at all

i woke up with the franticity of thoughts and just lay in bed immobilized by tiredness and anxiousness. should have got up and written it down instead!

So this goal is in conjunction with another goal I have about completing the book / process called “The Artist’s Way”. A big portion of that is morning pages. 3 pages of whatever comes to mind that are supposed to be written each morning. A clearing the clutter type of exercise I suppose. Some mornings it just flows and it’s easy and fun to write… others… I want to stop before I’ve even finished three sentences. So it’s a struggle for me but I want to keep going!!!

btw.. This goal is also my current challenge that I have with myself until the end of May. If I miss a morning, I have to transfer $20 into my savings account and can’t touch it for a year. This may seem ridiculous and unrelated… but for someone who is as impulsive with spending money as I am… not being able to have access to some.. is a pretty good little leverage tool.

right after i brush my teeth so i am coherent enough to formulate a sentence and have somewhat legible handwriting. i let loose of the morning’s anxieties. it feels good. i start my day with a little less clutter in the head. i’m definitely going to keep this habit.