relax and be happy

I would like to take more time for myself and relax a bit more these days…

I really do.. I want to try not to think. I would like to be somewhat ‘absent-minded’ even for just a minute.. take an extra mile without thinking of others except of what makes me happy and how happy I’ve become for the past years.. well? would you help me? :D

i’ve really done it. anxiety is about zero. i’m a lot more confident. life is fantastical.

not to try to break up fights between siblings. was trying to convince them to stop tonight, for the sake of mother’s day, which made it worse. not going to do that again…

my job allows me to…there’s no stress at all, and i’m not creating it any more. not worrying about school either, just doing what i have to do and enjoying it. they don’t pay me enough to get stressed out ;)

had a nice dinner tonight with the family. it’s nice that my brother is in college 1/2 hour away, and my sister lives nearby, so all of us can easily get together. my cousin found pictures online of my long-long sisters, though. they’re not really long-lost, they live 45 minutes away. so my sister and i were looking at them tonight. their mother, as far as we know, has told them so many negative things about us that i don’t think they’d want to talk to us (all lies, of course). have seen them for 3 hours in the past seven years. i want to email them, but we decided to wait until our one sister goes to college next year. that way she won’t have the influence of her mother and can think what she wants. so, had a nice night with my family, but a sad night thinking about my two sisters.

had a nice weekend: dinner w/ friend Friday, coffee & lunch yesterday, dinner Saturday, gym & shopping (spent no $) today. got all the work done, too. :>

feeling relaxed as accomplish these goals. thinking that anxiety stems from not trusting self to do what needs to be done in a given situation. as complete goals, trusting myself to work harder