Be nicer to people.

I was hanging out last night with some friends and one of these friends brought his girlfriend, whom I have never met. I wasn’t introduced or anything as everyone was saying hello to each other and normally I would have just kind of ignored her, but I took it upon myself to walk up to her and introduce myself and ask her her name. She was really really nice. I feel like the master cleanse is making me a better person all around. :)

I realized today that when asked how I’m doing or how my weekend went, most of the time I answer, but I don’t ask the question back to the person who asked me. And I think that is a part of normal, friendly conversation. I feel so stupid for not being able to hold a normal conversation with people. I’m really going to try harder to ask questions back.

So what I need to do is:
Smile and say hello more
Ask questions like how are you doing, how was your day, etc.

But I have some weird social awkwardness where I just don’t really want to talk to people I don’t know well when I’m out and it comes across, of course, as snobby and bitchy. I need to learn how to just smile more and say hello. That’s my first step – just saying hello with a smile. Even to people that I think I don’t particularly care for.

especially Red.

Wow I don’t know if this is possible for someone like me to do, lol. I too am brutally judmental and once I start liking someone, I find something wrong with them and then I don’t want it anymore. Something’s messed up in my head haha. I’m also just annoyed with people in general. I think that’s just the person I am though, because I am bossy and I like to be in control. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to stop being my sarcastic, cynical self! haha

I used to make fun of evrey body i saw that was differnt from me.Now when my friends and I are hanging out and they make fun of people I find something good in the person and piont it out, It shuts them up and makes me feel like i stopped something that wasnt right

My sister and I helped my best friend move into his new apartment. I tried my best to make the experience fun (moving tends to inherently suck). I think it worked, and he appreciated our help a lot!

I am also trying to gossip less. I caught myself gossiping today and was in a horrible mood afterward. Talking shit about people makes me feel really ugly, and when I don’t do it I feel really good…hah go figure.

I want to write an apology letter to an ex-friend, but it’s taking me forever to get started and I’m super afraid.
However, I do want to right this wrong so I’m hoping I can start on it tonight.

UPDATE: I wrote it, edited it (heh), and sent it today. Now I just have to wait and see if it even gets a response.

UPDATE II: well, she accepted that I am sorry, but does not want to be my friend again. Can’t say I realllly blame her that much. Of course it hurt my feelings that the apology wasn’t reciprocated in the exact way I wanted, but at least I got it out.

I’ve been really trying on this. It’s one of my harder goals because it’s not so easy to track…I mean what is “nice” anyway? But I’ve been trying, and I think some people have noticed.
The most recent example I can think of is that I helped a couple of my friends find a hotel to stay in while they come visit me. Unfortunately my apartment is too small to accommodate them, so I helped them find cheap hotels.

I’ve been kind of an asshole lately, so I’m going to start being more considerate.