be empowered

I currently am in a situation that has shown me that I have been dependent on my husband and lack empowerment. I mean to change this. Never again do I want to rely on someone else, I want to be able to raise my three children by myself, and not find life a struggle. I dont want to lose myself and be blinded again, nor let them put me down,nor make me dependent and fearful again.

I want to regain my humour, my creativity, my uniqueness,my joy for living, make money, and spend it however I see fitting. Never do I want to be treated again the way he treated me. I am special, even if he couldn´t see it or appreciate me.