Have an awesomely different life by this time next year

house loan!!! yipee!

Now I have a job I’m happy in and just got a raise, I’m out of credit card debt, I’ve reconnected with lost friends after persistently calling them despite how awkward it felt, I have a new car, and I’m in a wonderful new relationship, something I didn’t expect or even desire after the horrible long-lasting break up from the last boyfriend, and I’ve graduated with an associate’s degree. I haven’t accomplished all that I’ve wanted to do, but I’ll be moving out into my own place after I get a part time job to supplement my income. Definitely moving forward!

The doors are opening slowly but surely. There is hope and Im so happy to see things unfold in my life. Received wonderful news yesterday about sponsorhip for my book launch. Those small baby steps are paying off now:)

the UK – and Spain!! Inshallah! Fingers tightly crossed..

doing wonderful- revived my own company – cracked threee projects – one of them very large – and now going great guns with t.
Husband joins me in my work – have clearly defined areas of work and moving ahead!!!! ;)

We are trying to migrate to Namibia from the UK. Im so excited and cant wait to start this new life. New career, new challenges and charity work that will kick off. It will take time to settle in so Im giving this a year.

my ‘this time next year’ will be 2010, even tho ive had this goal up for longer.

progress ive made since december 2008:
-started taking japanese classes again and getting ready for the jplt in december!
-eating better and focusing less on food
-am more positive and nicer towards myself
-ive actually made several good friends for the first time since high school.
-doing more activities other than school, like dj-ing at the college radio starting this weekend!

things i want to work on in the next couple of months
-becoming more independent and self reliant. defining myself not by other people.
-staying positive and self correcting when i am down.
-become and stay more active. i am still struggling with regular exercise.
-have more regular creative outlets. my life always feels out of balance when i ignore this. i miss it.

overall 2009 has been difficult but so much better than 2008! my life is already very different.

So, maybe I’ll have an awesomely different life by this time 2010. OMG can you guys believe next year will be one decade into the new millennium?! Anyway..so this year was pretty descent but it could have been so much better. I found my dad but this year I wanna meet him. I lost like 40 pounds and managed to keep about 25 of it off(I pretty much pigged out on halloween candy, thanksgiving food, and all the other holiday stuff in December!) So this year I wanna lose that 15 I gained back and about 15 more. So 30 pounds is my goal! Wait till I get into like a size 8..ya’ll won’t be able to tell me nothing!! lol My confidence will be through the roof..but I promise not to be cocky..I think confidence is sexy, cockiness is unattractive.
Last year I took the spring semester off and went back in the fall. This year I’m taking the spring semester off but I plan on joining the nursing program at our technology center to become an LPN. I’ll get my license in a year. Then I can start my career as a nurse while going back to school at night for the rest of it.
As Barack Obama said “It’s time for a change”, and change is definitely coming in 2009.

Wish me luck!

I made this goal 6 months ago, i still have another 6 more. For now my life hasnt change that much. Of course 1 month ago I was feeling almost like if i was someone else. But now I came back to reality.
So what seemed to a good improvement has come down to the same old crap.
I wish that by the end of this 6 months things arent like this anymore I hardly can stand it.

It’s sad but true. I don’t see how this will happen. Not even if I put effort into making it happen which is the only way, really. I failed. Now I get over it.