I want to loose 20 pounds

ok i started this whole thing off at 140 pounds and now i am at 130, yay so that means ive lost like 2 pounds since the last entry, but i probably gain some of that back since then but whatever so i have 10 pounds to go to be back at my before baby weight and then i want to lose 5 pounds after that to be back what i was when i was a junior in high school! GO ME!!!!

ive lost 8 pounds so far, very happy, i did gain a pound cause i was eating alot and sitting in a car because i went out of town for the weekend but back on track starting now!

No progress. I geuss eating non-stop for a week harbors real consequences in the dieting world. Damn it, and I was doing so well :)
Now I feel, like I am back to where I started. Ok… On my scale it says that I am 135 pounds. But I don’t believe it. I remember weighing 135 pounds, and it didn’t feel like this. I am probably more like a 140 pounds. So, that means I deffinetly still have… 20 pounds to go.

AHHHHH!
I have to, have to…. HAVE TO, start tommorrow. It’s 1 am, and I know I am tired, I know I should go to bed, but all I want to do is eat… Thank god tommorrow is Sunday,so I can sleep in late. Except that my best friend has returned home, and he wants me to hang out with him… and I am just so… anxious, and socially awkward, even when it comes to someone I consider family. I just, feel, aweful, and… yeah, I need to just suck it up, and get back on track. So I look and feel disgusting… so what!
Carpe Diem! I mean, I am 21 years old. I am young and I can afford to morph and change physically… hahahaha… right?!

.... I am so tempted to go to the fridge…. :)

Loosing weight… sucks, there is no getting around that very well known fact. Ok, sometimes it’s fun to find “low calorie” sweets and pertend to treat yourself once in a while. But after two months of dieting, and depriving, and waiting, and exercising… one gets to the point where they scream F@%$ IT! And the “falling off of the wagon” immediately follows.

This is where I am right now. It started last week, I blew my diet for two days, four days apart. I went on my scale the following monday, and I had still managed to loose weight, which I was happy about. But this week, I have been hidding in the living room with chocolates and cereal for FIVE DAYS STRAIGHT! And I am really nervous to step on the scale again and I have been going crazy with guilt… (which doesn’t make much sense to me, if I know I wanted to eat… then why do I feel like crap because I have finally EATEN something).

Hahahaha, if anyone can sympathize with me, I wouldn’t mind a little encouragment or advice from others who are suffering the same battle. Or am I the only one who waited to get in shape when summer arrived :) Now I have three months before I have to go back to College and I would really like to have lost what I gained (roughly 20 pounds, give or take).

So I’m 13, but I’m 110 pounds. I’m also 5’4, but I would like to become a flyer in cheerleading. I was about 87 pounds a year ago, and I gained way to much muscle mass….
HELP?
how do i get rid of the muscle without it turning into fat or being anorexic???