invest in myself

seeing my shrink is investing in myself. i’m making steps to learn about myself and understand why i am the way i am.

Apart from the surf school, am seeing a hynotherapist next week, and a Gap personal stylist – the latters eems quite embarrassing to admit, but I have so many mismatched things in my wardrobe that a little free help won’t go amiss. I feel a bit guilty for shopping in Gap at all having read Microserfs…

I’ve been getting better at buying new clothes without worrying about how much I spend. As you shop more often it gets a little bit easier, because once you know you bought a really nice shirt, you’ll find things that would look great with it. It’s almost like your wardrobe can builds onto itself. You also have a ton of confidence when you wear something new for the first time. I really recommend it.

A place I love, which I deny myself. Might ecven like to go alone, almost like a retreat. Did I already say this one?!

Bought some fairly expensive (for me) but very nice trousers in Fat Face on the way to work. Felt really guilty (£45) then reminded myself I am wearing frayed or short trews ost of the time, I buy clotehs really rarely and it’s better to have one £45 pair I wear to death than several £20 pairs. They’re lovely, linen/cotton mox, and called allotment trousers, so they have a slightly 1940s flare to them, and wee buttons to allow you to hoik them up. That was the deciding factor I think! Described on website as “as warming as parsnip gin”..Mm!

I need (like a little kid needs, that only has threadbare shoes and clothes, and trousers at half mast!)

A new pair of shoes eg converse one stars.
A pair of black trousers to replace the ones that are all fucked at the bottom
A new pair of jeans as opposed to charity shop ones that are too short for me

it is a whole-life process

but..for now – i think i did alot
i go to 2 college- economy/ menagement
and – biology&chemistry

I know croatian, english and little german language !
- have lifeguard diploma
- work 5 month at Adriatic see like touristic animator
- volontere for 2 years in Red Cross
- was in Germany/Halle in student exchange
- work thousond of differnet jobs in city as student
- work on village at my grandparents house all field jobs
- was in Honory military guard of Osijek city

and i hope my list would be much, much longer…

I should go get my nails done sometimes… I should wear makeup more often… I should go to the gym… take a bubble bath… things that will improve myself- rather than letting ME fall into last place akk the time.