be celibate until I'm in a committed relationship

i swear to GOD, i think this is why everything in my life is really starting to go so well. i love the men. they are great, but i do not believe in just giving it away. not for any other reason than i just know i would not respect myself and come on, neither would they.

i may be alone, but i am respected and that is NOT a lonely feeling at all.

I feel giving in too quickly forms an artificial bond between two people, which only causes greater pain when the relationship inevitably ends. If the bond forms through shared experiences and gained trust with this person, then a commitment can easily be made at the right time. The act of lovemaking can then be one which will not form a ball of regret later.

It can push you into a horrible relationship for sex which i am not even having. Fuck this shit dude.

But as you can see, i suppose I still am. My heart is commited to a boy. I don’t know if it is the right thing to do. We may need to slow down a bit but then I’m scarred I will have time to think and then I will be alone again. I love his smell.

what can I say …but it was quite worth it.

I think I have needs that make me crazy. I want to touch boys all the time. It’s all I think about. AHHHHH! ok calm down. Fuck this dude I am going to sleep. I can’t handle the pressure.It get’s way worse at night.

I decided to be celibate until I am in a relationship because Everytime I sleep with someone it’s not living up to the expectation of what it was like when I was in love. I don’t get the attention I want. And then I can focus on things that really matter and not be obsessed with attaining something I feel that I want but is always a disappointment.
Good luck with staying hump free

I might be in heat … not a good thing

I failed , I cracked , I couldn’t take it anymore. I can only hope to start over with this goal come next year.

someone tell me again why I am doing this?