do all the crazy fun stuff I've dreamed of doing for ages

I’ve already been to the Renaissance Fair this year for the romance weekend and I’ll be going again on Sunday to the Wenches Weekend. I really had a great time throwing axes, throwing stars, and with archery. We watched a glassblowing workshop and I got two henna tattoos done. ((Don’t waste your money, buy a kit and do it yourself when it comes to henna!))

Plus, I went to the St. Lucie County Fair and went up in the Big Sling, which is like a huge sling shot. It shoots up into the air with two riders and twirls you around up high in the air, above the fair. It was crazy! I wasn’t going to do it at first, prior bad experiences flavoring this, but it was such a rush! I’m planning to go again on the day when the Fair is free admission.

Stepping outside the box at times is just liberating.

Well maybe if it’s crazy to think I can find someone who will love me :( .
I think the Bull Run is sane, I plan to live through it and take pictures.

I plan to jump from the plane with a parachute and sky diving instructors.

Only one thing on my list that can hurt me so I think I live in interesting times anyway I don’t need a goal to do the crazy fun things I’ve dreamed of I have this list for that.

calm and peaceful about it now.

I am more of myself right now, the person I sometimes lose when there’s a crowd or problem. I’m indulging in what I love and enjoy more and not worrying or trying not to worry about the other stuff.

For example, one crazy fun thing I did recently, as of today-was go the Florida Renaissance Fair with a teacher from school. I dressed up in my medieval costume, long sleeves, pirate kind of corset and wore it there. Last time I was too chicken to even try and used weather as a legitimate excuse not to-it was hotter than Hades last time. This time it was cool, even cold and rainy at first. I will be posting pictures once I get my camera in here at the same time I’m online. I had a really great time, and got to see lots of shows, give to the performers-whereas last year I couldn’t afford to much… I bought the cutest little cat puppet that I can turn and move the head with a cord, neat print and pendant. Definitely worth checking out if you live in Florida-it’s on until the second weekend in March!!!

With all the drama of Wes, and angst involved in our relationship, it’s been liberating to be free of it all. It’s as if a weight has been lifted off my back and I can definitely see at last why Wes thought this was a good idea. It does hurt when I think about it, but I don’t allow myself to very often. I wonder if that’ll hold as time goes on.

Perhaps I’m going to learn with my niece going and Wes & I no longer involved, how to just be me. I may get to be carefree, wild and just as exciting as I feel at any time I choose now.

What a thought!

You Can Do It! The Merit Badge Handbook for Grown-Up Girls by Lauren Catuzzi Grandcolas. Call number 646.70082 GRA. New shelves.

Definitely something one should check out.

Lately with all my work at my second job…I’ve daydreamed of just not appearing there when I was scheduled. Instead to go somewhere I’ve been wanting and when I was done there coming back and be like “Work? What work?” in an innocent voice.

A very tempting thought is to save the money aside and one day just get the money out. Take the money and go catch a train somewhere. Anywhere but here.

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1. Windsurfing…I started learning this with my Uncle John when I was 8/9 and loved it. I want to get back to this.

2. Surf I watched people on beaches for years here in Florida and I want to be able to do this someday. I know how to body surf but not get up on a board and surf.

3. Sail a Hobie. I believe this is the right term for it. I will need to learn quite a few things before doing this I think though.

4. Jump out of a plane intentionally. With a parachute mind you.

I may change this to something along the lines of doing all the crazy stuff I’d like to try before I get too old and decrepit(sp?).