I Have A Crush On Some One!

It’s sucks not having a valentines this year. instead of getting all dressed up and going out or having a quite evening alone at home with my date, I’ll be hanging with my pathetic supervisor and another co-worker ordering pizza and watching shrek 2. I get so sad when everyone else around me is planning for valentine’s day and I can’t because I don’t have a valentine.

This wouldn’t be so bad if I was home; then my niece would be my valentine :-) but because am away at school it’s not gonna be the same. This sucks, I’m gonna go and find something better to do.

My crush happens to have a girlfriend and I tell myself not to waste my time on this dude but sometimes I just can’t help it.

I find myself thinking about him more often than I would like but I try not to. Am so caught up that I can’t move on or let him go. A guy has never had such an impact on me ever so I don’t know how to go about the hole thing. This gonna be harder than I thought.

I think this is what I really wanted from santa this christmas. I’ve been in denial about it but I happen to come to terms with it all. It might just be too late being that tomorrow is christmas, but who knows. Santa might just give me the greatest surprise this year :-). I was just thinking earlier today about what I really wanted and that was the only thing I really could think of, I need me a guy to call my own.

I saw this guy last year in one of the cafeteria’s here at my school and ever since then I can’t stop thinking about him. At first I didn’t think much of him, until I continued eating lunch there every day and that’s when I noticed he was steering at me. It was the cutiest thing and oh he’s so cute. He seemed like a nice guy, very quite and very shy. For six months all we did was steer at each other (him more than me). I’m a very shy person myself so of course I wasn’t trying to make it too ovious to him that I like him as much as I do. Then once the school year was over I figure I would never see him again, then to my surprise we both were here taking summer classes. I saw him for the entire summer (yet I was yet to even know his name). Until one day I read his name tag and that’s how I knew his name :-). Now I’ve been trying to get over him completely and it’s just not happening. I’m usually over a crush within a week cuz I always find myself a new one. But no matter how many guys I think is cute he’s still in my mind, my thoughts, it’s ridiculous the impact he’s having on me. Honestly no guy ever cuz me to lose my mind, myself, and my focus. I find myself constantly thinking about him, sometimes I wonder what it all means. I just hope I figure it all out soon.