share my story

I think I’ve decided to share my story with Post Secret. This would be an easier way to share, yet it would still give me some inner peace that I need.

Is it degrading that I’d have it do it in a minimum number of words?

I’m not sure yet, but I still have something else started. I think once I send the post card in, this goal can be marked as finished.

Thoughts?

Someday I will share my story, but I’m not ready to yet. I’ve considered writing a book, because sometimes the events from my youth seem so surreal. But, I’m not willing to emotionally risk my self esteem in order to entertain others or in order to become published. I have started a memoir, but it’s not intend for others to see. It’s just my way of coping. I hope that I open up enough in the future to share my story, in order to help others. I think that if I speak out, then maybe I can save someone else. I just need to find the power inside of myself in order to do this.

As simple as it sounds, we all must try to be the best person we can: by making the best

choices, by making the most of the talents we’ve been given.

Mary Lou Retton

For my mother’s day…we decided to help out one of our children…

See, we had a Huge party for my grandmother for her 90th birthday and one of our children is now living in Michigan with her husband and our new granddaughter of 3 months with no vehicle. They are doing what everyone else is doing by working to do their best to make ends meet. Our son-in-law is one of the volunteers for the Army Reserve and he is going to training on the 14th. They have no car and were in a position of not being able to get to Illinois and back by that date. This would mean missing grandma’s big day!

Well, we just couldn’t let that happen. So, we decided to be their ride home. On Mother’s day we packed up the car and headed for Michigan. It was wonderful! The fresh air, the
beautiful landscape and the memories we were making. But, my husband couldn’t just drop them off. No…he decided that since they had been gone for a week and were returning without a car to get necessities…he took them to the grocery store and let them get their weekly supply of groceries and than to the mall where our daughter’s favorite
Chinese food is served! Then, after we said our “good-byes” we headed back to Illinois.

But unbeknownst to me…Bill took a detour! Before I knew it I was standing on the overlook to Lake Michigan.

With tears swelling up in my eyes and an overwhelming emotion of abundance I couldn’t help but cry!!

What a beautiful site!! What amazing sounds…the water breaking against the sand and the sounds of the seagulls!! I didn’t want to leave!

Just him and I and God’s Glory!!!

What an Amazing Gift for him to give me!!

For those who have known me for the past 3 years of being here on the internet – you know the story of how he and I met….I even wrote a book about it…and now…I have lived
it!!

I had to share…mainly because I “know” that so many are searching for that perfect person …their soul mate…and the moment in time that tells them…”Here is Your Wish!!”

Well, my friends…Yesterday…I got mine…

With love and gratitude…Never Give Up!!

When it happens and the flood gates let loose the trillions of tears that have been waiting to surface for the right reasons….It is Glorious!!

I so appreciate all of your comments and blessings of friendship!!

I want to Thank my Creator, my husband, my family and You for giving me such a wonderful Mother’s Day!!

Many Blessing -

Me :)

Being clean don’t mean you wont have problems in life. It is being able to handle things one problem at a time. Most important I am free from active addiction and for that I am truly grateful.

My story is long so I’m going to make it as short as possible. I was molested at 4 years old by my uncle. I had my first child at the age of 14. That’s when my self-esteem started to drop because the boy that got me pregnant denied that the baby was his. He knew he was my first. There I was a baby with a baby and no baby daddy. Anyway,3 years later I had my second child 6 months after I had turned 17. I was so in love with this baby daddy because he was there during the pregnancy and he took care of me. Well after I had the baby things took a different turn because he pretty much dumped me for another chick. At that point I was so hurt for being abandon again that I ran to drugs to alleviate the pain I felt. I was a strung out on drugs imediately at the age of 18. I’m not going to get into all the things addicts do because I did it all. My mom and dad was raising my kids while I ran the steets. The year 1994 my momma died from breast cancer and when my daddy moved on with another woman I was forced to get my kids. I could’nt take of my kids because I was strung out on crack. CPS ended up taking my kids from me. Dont get me wrong, everything that happen was because of choices I made. I take full responsibility. That was 1995 the same year I found out that I was HIV and Hepatitis C possitive. Between then and now I have had 2 more kids and I am raising them with my husband. It took me several times in treatment to get it but by the Grace of God I have been clean over 2 years. I have reunited with my other kids which is a 20 year old son and 17 year old daughter. My son comes and stay the weekend sometimes and I go to visit my daughter all the time at her foster home. I’ve learned to forgive myself for all the harm I’ve caused and my big kids has forgiven me as well. I am so grateful that my God is a God of many chances. HE is so good to me . I’ve been HIV possitive now for 13 years and I never been sick or on any medication. I had a liver biopsy 2 months ago and there is no damage to my liver. The Doctor said that my liver looked like a liver of a person who never used drugs or alcohol. I am 34 years old and I have been delivered and set free. Is’nt God good?

I am a tenth grader my story is long im going to try to make it as short as possible in third grade my step dad started sexually abusing me he abused me till 9th grader so just last year. I told my mom 3 times over the years he was going this and each time she just made him promise he wouldnt do it any more and what did he do he started again each time i didnt tell anyone other then my mom becuase i was protecting my little brothers. i didnt want them growing up without a dad they are 14, 14 and 12 my step dad did alot of bad things to me i am in a foster home trying to recover from what has happened to me my friends told our guidence counler about what was happening to me on april 12 of 2006 i am glad that i am away from him but at the same time im sad because my life has changed alot i am very depressed i have cut alot i have done alot of bad things that i know i shouldnt do but i do them anyways i have run away from my problems in the past and i still do i have people trying to help me not to that becuase then i wont get anywhere in life i am a very emotional girl i have gone through alot in my life. i like to talk to other people who have been sexually abuse in there life to see how they survived through this because alot of the time i want to kill myself becuase life is hard for me. if anyone reads this please send me something tell me how u got through this. my email is kittie_kirara@yahoo.com

to get over what has happened to me over the last 9 years of my life! i want to finish high school and become a vet but that aint looking so good

I am dominique i am 19 i have a son who is 9 months old i got pregnant at the age of 17 and i am the only one taking care of him my mother babysits while i work to support myself and my son. I am really confused that while i have a good heart towards most people i can’t stand his father i do not ask for anything from him just a little help and he does not care for either of us but still wants to controll our lives. Why is it that a man never wants to take responsibility for his actions also but is real fast in trying to be a man and never living up to it?