be more affectionate

More affectionate towards my boyfriend in public is needed, however mainly more towards friends and family.
I’m generally discribed as “hard”, and “unemotional” by anyone who doesn’t really know me. I’d say that being overly emotional is actually one of my negative qualities, but I’ve just trained myself to hide it away. I hate feeling exposed.
Three affectionate acts that I would normally shrink from per week? My goal.

Inside and out. ;-D

I want to NOT be affectionately awkward. Yeah. I said it. I am totally retarded when it comes to physically expressing my love and care.

;-D

Next time I see J… I will hug him. Enough with the arm play…

My friend MM left for boot camp last night. Hope he does alright. He’s a tough cookie, he treats me differently than other girls, which I’ve always credited to me being “tough” or “unfeminine” or “unapproachable”. Not really sure what it’s about or if my opinion is even close to the mark. Anyways, I hugged him goodbye… he maintained some distance, but I was happy with myself.

Now to see if I can figure out what that’s about. Since it doesn’t happen with anyone else I know, maybe it’s just his issue?

Hugged G&G, M&D, K but not J (I chickened out!) and M!

Now to expand beyond hugging. Although, I’m pretty good at other affection… it’s hugging that’s a bit more challenging for me…

Hugged E goodbye :)

Ok, doing better! I initiated 2 hugs :) One with L.L. and one with A.G. Need to slow down, and enjoy them now.

I’m just not a hand-holder/hugger/lovie-dovie/do cute things for my bf type of person. So bad.