For me, Judea was most sympathized.
My baptism class teacher told me, or, almost all fundamental christians told:” Believe that everything is god’s plan and god’s will. w/o God’s permission, nothing can happen.”
so, they keep telling me that Jesus came to die for us. ok, here i got serious, and asked my baptism teacher word by word: “so u r sure ” Jesus came to die for us”? right?” ” yes,”
if that so, w/o Judea’s betrayal, how could Jesus managed to be caught and crucified successfully? Why then Judea was blamed and excused as a traitor? w/o him, how could Jesus made himself die for us? Judea, at the fundamental part, playing an utmost important role to assist Jesus to fulfill the great prophecy of `God loves us so much that he sent his only son, jesus came to die for us’. Judea was either a satan or angel. We’re told that as if he’s a satan, he betrayed jesus for a cheap deal. if this was not supposed to be the God’s plan of jesus’ death. then what? satan was more powerful than God to mess up his plan, that actually God wanted to strike Jesus’ died with lightning? with accidents? with plague? ??? if not, didn’t Judea just playing his bad-guy role in disguise to assist Jesus moving to God’s plan – TO DIE FOR US? logically, he should be an angel, by assisting in God’s work.
Poor Judea, apparent he has no free will. he had to betray Jesus. otherwise, Jesus can’t be able to die for us.
poor Judea, he died out of guilt of self-blame, and being blamed as a traitor.was he? or a unappreciated mistaken sacrifice?
this `teacher’ couldn’t give me a direct answer. guess what. she used one of my answer to myself to answer me! smart enough to be a copycat of someone learning from her!
that’s it. if what can i get from my doubts is the exact answer i gave to myself, and the so-called teacher cpoied and pasted her student’s answer to answer back the student. what’s the point? who’s the teacher?
Don’t fxxking waste my time!
I wonder what make them think they r qualified enough to teach if they don’t even know how to explain the basis question that they promote proudly?
just a bunch of religious nerds who want a pastime to feel good about themselves by `working for God’.
The baptism has no credentia in it. 1 day ago

The reality is…people want/take benefits from what they’re skeptical with. “The concept of God” & moral-related questions have been controversial issues which never come to a conclusion.
but, when u observe carefully outside the controversy, see how those skeptics bless and take blessing in the time of difficult victory and disaster, we say ” Good luck” even though we don’t think they’re superstitious. We receive ” God bless you” as a good vibe even though we don’t think God exists, yet we get offended when people say `fuck’ or `fucker’ to us even though we are f-ker who enjoy to `fxxk. but why then it is not a good vibe to us? why the seemingly abstract, dowdy, boring belief’s thing we perceive subconsciously as a blessing eventhough we don’t believe it?
and why bother to have serendipity in another hand if we think that we ourselves are our own God who can take control of everything in our life without the care from an invisible supernatural power? admit it or not? what are we humans?
this is the reality ( not the truth) i observe in this world so far as i live. 5 days ago

The reality is funny enough, as humans feel ashamed of what they like to do the most – sexual intercourse. admit it or not? since when and by whom humans are taught to be offended when others throw us the `FXXK’ word? and, don’t know who started the mindset to say `fxxk’ or any sexual-related words which would make humans freak out taking it as insults or curses which widely used during the time of negative situations?
don’t we, humans DESIRE, LOVE sex? don’t we, humans worship penises as sacred things in shrines? don’t we humans appreciated vagina as the door of pleasure? why then they all turn out into an offense & humiliation to insult others?
don’t we are told sex is the sacred gift from God? so since when & how comes it became a scandalous taboo for a man to cover up his affairs with other women behind his partner while he was taking pride to sex around with girls in another hand. so, he takes pride `and’ feels ashamed at the same time? clinton announced:” I don’t have any affairs with that woman!” clearly. word by word, denying what had he enjoyed doing. He, for sure taking pride as a man while he was doing it. but how come shrunk like a rat when it was in the light? does he take pride being a man or not? A great intelligent professional suddenly shifting sharp into a rat within a finger-tip trial. the trial here doesn’t mean the sexual temptation, but where is the gut of a M-A-N( cocky gender) to be confident of what he had done? the trial here also means the natural feeling of shame for what he LOVES to do!! hahaha. strangely funny humans!
if sex is so normal & good, why we have such a natural negative instinctive response towards what we longing to do (sometimes even at any cost for some people)?
doesn’t it sound ironic and more than funnier?
yes, as i said, this is the reality that i observe in this world (i don’t said that it’s a truth). 5 days ago

20.30 -10.30 i was a20 minutes late fro work. rang the bell, self-intro-ed.welcomed warmly by Julie gripping my hand while leading me in. the whole group was mostly retired age.some with deformed faces. didn’t like with smell of the house. nothing new from the bible study. the study was Psalm 14.
after the prayer section, there was a birthday dinner for one of the member. i was defensive at the beginning out of the past experience with some religious idiots, but was mesmerized by their bubbly, cute, cheery, chatty interactive during the dinner. it surprised me to find out that this group actually was `young’! i was moved. different from some dark & white old pigs that disgusted me, these chinese retired uncles gave me fatherly feeling. funny somemore Teh & Julie chatting about the recent election issue. In addition, i ate a lot eggplant Yong Tau Fu which I’ve been longing.
Apart from a preachy tomboy who was newly the church paying this group a visit & trying to promote her upcoming speech (with admission fee), i was glad to b surrounded by such a good vibe. 1 week ago

join new bible class today. although i was bit impatient n skeptical but i think like the place, the group n the topic we were discussing. a verse struck me…:Ecclesiastes 10:10
Good News Translation (GNT)
[10 If your ax is dull and you don’t sharpen it, you have to work harder to use it. It is smarter to plan ahead.]

i will going back…

-went for Bible study class last wednesday 10/10/2012.it was my first time in mont kiara Bible study group. this group was great – people, dinner. I will go back. We studied Eclesiates 10, discussing about fool & wise. It was a good lesson.although i got impatient at times, but i guess i’m benefited from the discussion. Darkness like me need light. 7 months ago

Inside the church, they r killing time, passing time w/o studying seriously. all shallow jokers inside there thought they are saints and saved by scapegoat’s blood!
fucking puking! 7 months ago

All the idiots are in the church… so disappointing…
do nothing. just bullshit. even in the critical time, say nothing constructive,even alreasy much older than i am…
fxxking sucks..! they just know to fart with their mouth…
no credential, no genuineness… fuxk them…hypo..fuck them religion nerds… 7 months ago