be a better muslim

I want to make my Deen my number one Focus. After an almost 2 week hiatus from prayer (woman issues & laziness), I prayed Fajr this morning. I hope to quietly inspire my husband to focus on his Deen also. Being a new Muslim (of 9 months) is harder than I thought. It’s easy to “dress the part” but more challenging to actually do the work. Hoping by this time next week to not have missed any of my prayers, Insha Allah!

I do keep up with the 5 prayers but i have a habit of delaying them and doing them HOURSSSS later. Some days I don’t do all of them though. I want to thank and remember and praise God more to and realize His Existence, Perfection, Sovereignity and His Goodness and Guidance. Sometimes I have doubts that there is no God due to the circumstances of my life. Sometimes I get overwhelmed by the negative views of Islam and hate having to deal with people;s stupid questions and comments.
Ugghhhh…inshallah I will become a STRONG* believer, happy in the faith and worship of God and enjoying His Creations.

every day you should strive to do better then the day befor keep on steping up.

I really feel that i need to be a better muslim

starting by praying all 5 prayers..

I really have intentions but somtimes i get lazy and i cant commit

Does anyone know how to stay on track with prayer?

Rememberance of death is always good, if I take some time out to remember the fact that I’m going to die, that I might not make it to the end of the day, it promotes awareness of Allah, responsibility over actions and increased thankfulness for the time that you do have on earth. Alhamdulillah.

I think why i haven’t been a better muslim by now is that i have not made it a number one priority and that i am lazy and like me ex-wife says, I’m selfish. So i apologize to myself, i will learn the prayers and pray and be more humble and more patient and stay the course. After writing this i will find out what time sunrise is and wake up and defiently stop going to bed at midnight.
I went to the Masjid on Sunday, took the kids with me., i haven’t been there in like 3 years. It was nice to go., but after 5 mninutes there the 2 year old and 4 year old were restless., so we will attempt to go again but note to self: bring some candy in, some “shhhh” goodies i can bargain with with the little ones. While i was there, there was this one gentleman., he seemed like a nice enough man., he asked if he could get a ride somewhere to drop a jacket he had borrowed from someone. I didn’t have any plans so i was like sure. On the way there, he just told me some stuff, oh mannn, you know when you think you have problems—you then meet someone else with like wayyy more serious problems than you have ever had. He was a nice guy he geniunely did not want to burden me with his problems., but he was homeless., did not have any money and recently lost his job and has been sleeping over night in a friends car parked outside, and it gets really really cold outside. So before dropping him off., i gave him sixty dollars and just felt i should have done so much more. So next sunday, i will pack a blanket and and gently used jacket and insha’allah i will see him again, and if not maybe just drop it off to anyone that may need it.

Peace of mind

I’ve got all my prayers and the fasting and the Qur’an reciting down but if my heart’s not in it there’s no point. Time for a spiritual re evaluation, can anyone recommend any good books for kick starting some soul searching and searching for Allah swt?

There is something simple I’d like to establish in my home, inshaAllah:

-morning and evening dua/dhikr times.

It’ll probably just be me and the little ones in the morning, though.

It’s not much, but it’s a start, inshaAllah.

Bismillah.

OK, so I haven’t made any progress on this. Ramadhan has come and gone, and I have reverted to my old habits of going Jumu’ah and that’s it. Not good. I really must kick myself and get moving on this goal. Imagine dying tomorrow, and realising you have wasted all your time and achieved nothing towards pleasing Allah.