have more faith

I feel that faith is a gift and I pray that I’m blessed with that gift.

So…I watched Dogma, and now I have a HUGE renewal of faith!! Which is interesting, considering that my Catholic friends had a drop in faith after they watched it. It may be gibberish, but it was a fun, thought-provoking movie, and I loved it. Here’s to a God who really does have a sense of humor <3 "Merp!"

My man doesn’t have a job, he’s having health problems since before Christmas, I’m not being challenged enough in my classes so I’m slacking, there’s too many clearances/tests/things I need to do, and it’s hard to save money. bUt…these are just things we’re talking about here. I’ll get past/through them, Lord willing, and anyway, God is bigger than any problem I will ever have. As long as I remember He is in control, I can loosen my hold on the reins and do my best in everything. <3

so says God…and i should listen. I don’t get to see my man very much at all, and it’s really wearing on me…and things are blecky…but other things are good, and I should be happy about that. I have my family, I have my classes, I have job to pay for my car….I’ll just blame it on the weather. Praise God! I am alive!

i don’t belong to a particular denomination. i consider myself Christian by birth. i would like to have more faith in myself, my boyfriend, my relationship, my goals, my life… and ultimately just having faith that things work out for the best no matter how hard or unmanageable they may seem.

I have been able to re-affirm my belief in my personal motto- “Everything happens for a reason.” This has really helped me to see where and who I am today, and to believe that my life will take it’s course- I don’t need to worry so much about where life will take me, but to enjoy the ride, and just have faith =D

one of my best friend’s friends died very recently, and she’s not doing so well.
some good friends of mine, who had difficulty getting pregnant, lost their baby of 7 months a couple days ago.
it’s things like these that really test my faith.
However, I had an image of a grown Skylar, standing blonde and tall and laughing in Heaven. I’m trying to hold onto that. And as my mom says, one day will all be together again. I trust and pray that this is true!!!

today I finally got baptized at the church on top of the hill. I really love that place…the people don’t judge me, they talk to me kindly and like me as far as I know. I can’t go too often b/c I have to work or some such, but I go when I can. I love the warmth, the simplicity and the strive for really understanding things. It heals me, and it’s a great thing, b/c sometimes in this world, I really, really need to be refreshed and healed. I am grateful. Praise be to God.

my faith has gone downhill…more the faith in people than mhy faith in God, however…but I recently tried going to “the church on the hill” that quite a few of my friends belong to, and I really like it. The sermons are a bit long, as is the singing after a while, but oh, I think it really is the church for me! Finally, after all these years!! Granted, I’m not going to go every week, b/c I might be working or taking a test or sick or something, but so far I’ve really liked it the times I’ve gone there. The pastor is REAL; he debates things, he talks about all different sides of problems, he is enthusiastic and the music is great! maybe later I may be like everyone else and be like, ugh, church, but as for now…I’m SO happy I’ve finally found somewhere I WANT to be!!

Thank you, Lord.

my dad of all people with his baggage and issues willingly attended church on his own. he hasn’t gone to visit a priest in decades. i believe that eveyone praying for him all these years mos def had something to do with it. a miracle indeed.