stop being an asshole

The asshole inside me seems to keep getting larger. Masked in alcohol, snide comments and passive aggressive behavior. I can blame it on depression, or a shitty childhood, but really, I have to blame it on myself. I have had so many incredible opportunities, squandered most of them, bitterly, and been a shitty person dressed up as a funny man. I’ve also done some straight up asshole stuff like sleep with my friend’s wife, repeatedly. I can blame this on being lonely and rationalize it, but the fact is, that is something only an asshole would do. Also, little things, like expecting the world to treat you different than it does everybody else. Like I deserve better. That’s super asshole stuff, that is a daily thing. Looking down on people is a big part of it I think. Thinking you’re better than them, and not wanting the friends you have because they’re not good enough… but not liking people who think they’re better than you, or perceiving that… Authority issues? You bet. Asshole? Yes. I don’t like being an asshole. I don’t want to be an asshole, and yet – there it is.

dont think im ever gonna not be one. you dont even see and then seriously, someone says something or you realize you just said something you can’t really forgive yourself for.

I must have held back 1000 remarks where I could have been a dick/ asshole HARDCORE they would have been lashed danggggggg

My wife says she’s gonna bail on me after 6 years of marriage. I had an asshole friend who lived with us and I just picked it up and now I can’t get rid of it.

This shit has got to stop.

Personal insults

Invading one’s personal territory

Uninvited personal contact

Threats and intimidation, both verbal and non-verbal

Sarcastic jokes and teasing used as insult delivery systems

Withering email flames

Status slaps intended to humiliate their victims

Public shaming or status degradation rituals

Rude interruptions

Two-faced attacks

Dirty looks

Treating people as if they are invisible

Found this list, but I need some kind of impulse control techniques.

Rob

I’ve been mulling things over in my head, and I think across the past year or so, I’ve become a complete dickhead. I thought I was depressed, but now I’m being inconsiderate, and I end up just being a dick to people in general. I’ve ended up lying my way around things, to myself and others. I’d just rather not end up regretting my youth, so I’m going to stop now…

Today I realized how much of an asshole i can be, and it scared me a little bit. So, that’s something I definately need to work on.

I thought I sorted all this stuff out a long time ago, just be nice to people. I guess it wasn’t enough, I am apparently inconsiderate and disrespectful of others (I know as I just got fired for this). I keep slipping back into this shitty mind frame, not on purpose but it keeps happening all the same.

I had a bad two years, but I have to get over it now! Start thinking of others you asshole.