drink less alcohol

I slipped on July 4th and once again drank wine. I knew better than to even take that first sip but I fell into the trap of “Well everybody else at this shindig is drinking so I’ll just have one small glass!” Well one led to several and I woke up with my first hangover since I adopted this goal. I can’t look back though, I can only look forward and make myself stay away from that dreaded wine.

I can say that I have been drinking a little less lately because I am really focused on losing weight, but struggling with this has made me realize just how much of a problem I actually have with alcohol. I have the very unhealthy habit of drinking alone, but my sister and my family all notice just how much I can drink anyways. This only makes me hide it from them even more and I usually have my own stash that no one knows about. I am so embarrassed about this and I have tried to stop many times. The longest I have been able to go recently is about two weeks, then all the sudden I can’t sleep or something upsets me and I feel like I am going to explode from how anxious I feel- and I go right back to drinking. Oh, and I will feel so much better during those two weeks too! The thing that makes me feel the worst is when I think about how much money I could have saved in the past few years that I have spent on it. I have bills that I can’t pay, yet I always seem to have alcohol around. PATHETIC. I’ve got to stop this.

Although I probably shouldn’t drink loads of coke instead.

I’ve only had one cider a day and ZERO wine since my last entry. I feel fantastic….no hangover, lot’s of energy….life is good.

15 days without. Also, today is 3 years since I joined 43T!

To be honest, I got a bit down yesterday, I was very tired for starters, and I had a fleeting thought “If only I could drink”, but then I realized it wouldn’t actually help and it was best that I didn’t anyway. I’m not going to try and use ‘alcohol’ to ‘cheer me up’, as oftentimes it makes things worse anyway. I got over the ‘feeling down’ eventually, I think watching a DVD and having a takeaway helped… but mainly it was probably just that the feelings came and then they went.

I’m going to go at least a month without. Maybe even longer. That’s only until the middle of July and I’ve already gone 2 weeks. I have reasons – one example, it should save money. Middle of July I have a gig to look forward to, anyway. I don’t need alcohol to have a good time. If I do ever drink it has to be either not too much or it’s none at all.

Didn’t do so well yesterday but nothing compared to what I had been doing. Drank 3 beers, but it was during a time span of 6 hours with food and lots of water in between. Did notice that I got a huge headache after the third one but that could still be remenents of my body coming off the wine. Onward & upward!

Today. That means – 2 weeks without! At the moment I’m listening to “Adam And Joe” show, live from Glastonbury!

Unfortunately wine has become my best friend and I must break this friendship. I can easily drink a bottle a day and it goes down like kool aide. I used to be on the stop drinking goal and actually had a good sober run for awhile but then stress of events in everyday life took over and I would tell myself “just one little glass of vino will help you deal with this.” Well one glass led to the whole damn bottle. Stop Drinking seemed scary and unachievable so when I spotted this goal I thought I might can do it this way and slowly wean myself off and then move back to stop drinking. I am happy to report that yesterday I only had one beer and it took me a long time to drink it….I hate beer.

Had a meal out and went to pub… I had a good time and didn’t drink any alcohol. I even resisted Jagermeister at a place where it’s £1 (I had a hot chocolate instead, which was nice, and even had a little biscuit).

12 days so far.

Today is day 10.

Last night went out to pubs (3… 2 of which I hadn’t been to before), had a few soft drinks, and played 2 games of pool. It was fun. Saves money not drinking alcohol, too – soft drinks are generally cheaper.