this is what i have been busy doing. dad was dx’ed with the cancer last month and it’s serious. it’s been a rollercoaster. things have settled (though whenever i say that, they get funky again). so far this is the scariest thing i’ve dealt with in my life and is a reminder of how little time we actually spend in our shells here on earth. 9 months ago
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i did some things that were soooo scary:
.i was supposed to go to lunch with my pal, but then we ran into his zirlfriend, and we all ended up eating together. i wanted to say no at first, but stayed. and it was super fun.
.i got myself to a dinner party with about 8 humans. i knew a handful only. i didn’t freak out and had nice conversation. 15 months ago
tonight i was delivering valentines to 2 friends and was trying to discretely set in their mailboxes. there were a bunch of mailboxes together by my one pal’s house and i didn’t know which was hers because i didn’t know her address and her porch light was off. so i had to park my car, creep around, walk up to her door to see her address and then find her mail box. at first i was going to just drive away and not deliver because i was scared i’d get yelled at by someone, but i forced myself to do it. and it was fun. 17 months ago
last week i taught a complete, public yoga class where i knew no one in the class. i was super scared [even woke up at 4am unable to go back], but it went ok. i got positive feedback from the lady observing me. it was 10 minutes too short, so i’ll have to work on my timing a bit. but doing this was a huge relief. 17 months ago
i used the room at the gym with machines. only boys were in there, so first i was scared. but i’ve used these machines before and am comfortable with them. now i am buff. 20 months ago
on friday i mountain biked by myself. i was scared to bike alone, because i worried i’d get turned around and become lost. but i made it out ok.
on my bike ride, i went over a neat see saw type thing which i was initially scared to do. 21 months ago