get to know him

whom I’d really like to become a friend. From the few words that have passed between just the two of us, he seems like a really awesome guy and someone I’d love to have as a friend. I think we have a lot we could talk about.
The issue is that he kinda intimidates me in that I’ve seen him as “too cool for me” for a while. I’m realizing that he’s just a normal guy, but I’m still afraid he only speaks to me cuz he’s nice. He’s also nearly always with other people and I don’t know how my presence would be accepted among them.
I know I overthink it and should just go be sociable, which is why I’m making it a goal.

And now there is a new “he” in the picture.
And I’m going through this process all over again.
But it’s going great :].
I talk to him on the phone quite the bit.
He told me I’m really the only person he talks to on the phone, so this is cool. :]

It’ll never really be done. But we’re taking the necessary steps to get to know each other and it’s well worth it. So I’ll say it’s done. Every thing’s in place for it, and the process will take awhile. But the point is its started. I’ve accomplished what I wanted to, setting this goal in motion.

because of this. We decided we needed to take a step back and really get to know each other before we “find ourselves two years from now realizing we have virtually nothing in common except sex drive and we call it off and both suffer from broken hearts.” We had to take this step back or we would have just continued on the way we were even if we did talk about this issue. He said he wants to get to know everything about me and be my best friend and confidant, I want to be the same for him. Then and only then will we see where we’re at and consider dating again… this is gonna be a long process.

but not as well as I should. I started dating my current boyfriend on Valentines day this year. So we haven’t been going out very long. I actually stupidly lost my virginity to him last night. It’s one of those things, I knew I would regret it, I just knew it, and I shouldn’t have done it, it went against my religion, my upbringing, my morals… everything. I like him a lot, and I’m very attracted to him, but I’m not in love with him at this point and I just can hardly even accept what we did. I always thought I would wait until I was married, or at least head-over-heels in love. But all of that has obviously flown out the window. Anyway, now I want to really get to know him, and let him get to know me. I am really really good at sabotaging my relationships by putting to much emphasis on the physical. I don’t even know why I do it. I don’t really want that shallow of a relationship. I know he’s more then willing to expand our relationship to the point that we really know each other. Not that we haven’t talked and started getting to know each other, we have, but I don’t feel like I know him know him, if that makes any sense. I also know if I told him I made a mistake and don’t want to have sex with him again until we’ve taken more time to really get to know each other and see if we’re even compatible enough to last he’ll respect that. I know I’ve already screwed up, but I’m gonna try to rectify it. It may not be to late. I realize I should have done this part first, not after the fact, but what’s done is done. All I can do now is move on and try to fix it before I’m in another relationship based purely on the physical.

Will be a month since he’s been my boyfriend. And although I know him pretty well (and am going to check this as a completed goal), there’s never a stopping point when it comes to knowing someone, you know? Even when it comes to knowing yourself.

He told me that we’re gonna date once we get to know each other a little better, and I’m hanging out with him tommorow.. yay =] So this is a huge goal right now, but it’s looking possible :).

to talk to him over the whole entirety of Christmas Break. But there’s this other person..who hangs out with one of my friends..that I wouldn’t mind getting to know better… =]

It’s Christmas Break now… and I can’t talk to him because he doesn’t have his cell phone since he went over on his minutes. =[
I hope he gets it back as a Christmas Present!

Okay, so…my guyfriend decided that he only wants to be friends. Which is cool with me.
So I’m back to the guy that I originally was wanting to get to know better. [Yeah, the one that never replied to my note.] Well, basically, he sits with me at lunch, now. So we are talking a lot more and I really want to get to know him much better =]
So far, I find that he’s awesome.