Take good care of my Cat

I recommend this spray (used under the tongue) for any one who is taking care of a sick animal or who has recently lost someone (end of relationship, death etc). It’s been a life saver for me. IT helps me to feel the feelings and let them flow through me (instead of getting blocked, numb etc)

Solace and Insight in times of sorrow and searching

Primary Indications:

• To assist in re-building the soul’s foundations due to the death of a beloved one, whether human or animal

• To help in the dissolution of any meaningful relationship, such as divorce or dislocation

• During any natural disaster punctuated by death, destruction and loss, both for relief workers and for victims

• During times of personal loss or set-back when the soul feels empty and is searching for new direction or meaning

The Grief Relief formula features:

Bleeding Heart For strengthening the heart forces especially at times of broken-heartedness and dissolution of relationships

Pink Yarrow Helping feelings to find containment and centering during times of crisis and emotional diffusion

California Wild Rose To provide encouragement and strength for the heart during times of hardship; to help in working through the thorns of life toward transcendent love forces

Love-Lies-Bleeding Ability to accept suffering and sorrow, and to understand its larger spiritual meaning and life purpose

Borage To relieve the weight of deep grief in the heart; to help uplift during times of depression and emotional heaviness

Forget-Me-Not To build alignment with the soul presence of those who are no longer with us in the physical dimension; ability for the soul to realize that death and departure are not the end of a spiritual relationship

Explorer’s Gentian To help with crisis, loss and set-back; when the soul must learn to take another turn or make another choice in life purpose and path

From Three Way Designs

http://www.catsofaustralia.com/cat-euthanasia.htm

He seemed to want water today…lots of it. I put a giant bowl out this morning, the kind you would use to make cookies in. I filled it up and he just hung out over the bowl drinking on and off for a while. It was cool that he was drinking …but he drank so much!
That will be his new bowl. I have been feeding him the Wellness Grain Free (wet food). It was recommended by a friend who rescues and helps animals.
The Doctor called me back (the one about putting him to sleep). But he didn’t leave information about when he can come by. So, I have to call him again tomorrow. I may just have to bring D. in to the vet (no!) or have the other vet come by, the one that I don’t really want to call.

Waiting for a call from the vet who can put him to sleep.
I will ask him to come to our house to do this. He is the vet that my friend has used over the years whenever one of her animals needs to be put to sleep. She doesn’t put all of them to sleep (actually believes that it should only be done in certain circumstances, i.e. the animal stops eating..is suffering etc).
I didn’t want to call the vet. I put it off for so long.
I called yesterday and found out that it’s $250 to have him come here and put him to sleep. What will they do with him after? Take him away? I don’t know what I would do if I kept him here but I hate the idea of them just taking him. It’s so sad. Last night I was up with him. Well, I slept with him and he woke me up with shortness of breath. I was petting him and trying to comfort him, knowing that his time was coming to the end. He is still getting up to eat. Drinking. Meowing at me when I come over. I can just tell that he is not comfortable. This timing thing is so hard. It’s so easy for anyone to just tell me to put him to sleep! The girl at work “why don’t just put him to sleep!”. I wonder if she would just put her parent or friend to sleep the moment they get a little old or sick. It’s just easier! We can always get more!
I don’t feel that way. I so rarely have anything this close or special to me that I want to be very sure that I gave it my all (not to the extreme of invasive medical intervention etc or anything that would put strain on him). The problem here is that I am feeling horribly guilty for not being able to help my little baby. I hear it again and again and it’s so true…love just can not save people/ animals. Our love alone just doesn’t do it. I hope it was all for something.
Still waiting for Dr. Shulke (sp) to call me back.

Every time I come home I half expect to find out that he died. Last night when I went to bed it just really seemed like he was slipping. He was just so sleepy and not that responsive to me calling his name—I was looking for a meow or something.
Well, this morning when I woke up he was more than awake! He was already up (usually he is sleeping and I snuggle with him for a few minutes while I wake up) and ready for his food.
I fed him and he ate. I gave him some nettle tea (he prefers it out of my mug) and he looked at it. After I begged him a bit (I just started this and it seems to work)he drank some of the tea. After that he drank some water in two spots (some in the kitchen and some in the livingroom). Now he is on my lap—I made a bridge with a chair so that he could walk from the bed to the computer. Jumping down to the floor is too hard on his body now.
I am off to work soon. I will ask to get off early again to come home and feed him. 8 hours is too long to leave him alone! Well, my sweetheart is here but…really, he’s not ‘in’ this with me. I don’t even discuss it with him because, he’s not into animals. Funny he ended up with me… I will rescue a spider in the shower…opposites do attract sometimes.
Okay, this has been the morning ramble. I am off to feed my neighbors cat (who is crazy and chews on my hair if I let him).

It’s just getting so close to the time when he has to be put down. Things just are going wrong. Yet, he wants to eat. He still communicates and he is just so cute. Right now he is on my lap and arm as I type.

It’s been really hard. He’s been throwing up and I can only give him his medicine with food in his stomach. Lots of things to balance. I wish I didn’t have to go to work tomorrow. Maybe I can have a short day?

Well, it comes down to the two of us. What we are going to do.
I let my cat out yesterday and he went right up to the landlord guy and gave him a loud meow like “DAMN IT!”. Anyway, it was cute and it was nice to see someone else visiting my cat other than just me. My friend Ian came over yesterday and gave him a pet (he’s allergic) and said hello. HE looked so sad and said that he’s not looking so great but he’s still really cute. Anyway, Ian knew D. in his prime! We all used to live together and we would constantly be amused by D’s new tricks! Every day a new trick to keep us entertained.

This morning I fed him and poured a tiny bowl of colostrum for him to drink. He ignored the food. When he went close to the colostrum I said “D pleeeeeeeeeease drink that…..please!!!!”. He seemed to agree. He went in to sniff it and then forced himself to start drinking a little. He drank most of it and I swear it was just to please me.
What a sweetheart!!! I love him and I will never be ready for him to go.

I just got home. My neighbor Karl was out front when I got home drinking a beer with a friend of his. I invited my cat out and he came running down the stairs. Karl called him the 100 year old cat but didn’t mean to offend anyone by it. He actually figured out that he is 95 in cat years. Anyway, D doesn’t really care for him. He liked the other guy though. He usually likes everyone! especially men! Anyway, it was fun to hang out outside and chat with my neighbors about whatever on such a beautiful night. It was even more fun to have my cat around who I am truly proud of. I told my cat I was proud of him last night when we were outside and each time I said it he rolled around and posed a bit! It was so cute!!!

Anyway, he’s been meowing for something, he has food, water, love etc…I don’t know what he wants. I’ll keep trying to figure it out.

I took him out to the garden with me tonight at sunset. It was so cute. He was a little reluctant to come outside. He peaked his head out the front door a bit until I called him. He raced down the stairs after that and hung out around on the grass.
A neighbor stopped and introduced himself and D (kitty) walked right over and up to him to say “meow” and get pet a bit. It was cute to see D. get excited about this guy and connect with him a bit! The guy told me about how he had an all white cat and had really loved him.
Funny, the guy asked me if I was from Ca. and I said that I was from Mn….he’s from Mn too!! Midwesterners! We are all over this neighborhood!