Evolve discreetly into a 1950s domestic goddess

I love baking it’s the housework that gets me. :(

... I wholeheartedly would like to be the cookin’, cleanin’ machine that is the best June Cleaver mom in the world! However, we are sharing a home with other people for now and it’s a challenge to take charge in this situation. When we get our own place again, THEN I will become the 1950’s domestic goddess that I know I can be. :)

just click your heels…there no place like home…

And when it came time to think about dinner I asked my mom if she had a couple ingredients… WHY? so I could cook us all dinner. Wow I really AM a domestic goddess!

rewind 1 year ago… I was still living with the distinction of being the girl who could burn pasta. HA!

I’ve got the cooking, the cleaning, the sultry gazing at my hubby who wears dapper hats, but I haven’t quite perfected that 50s look… Maybe I’ll figure it out this year.

I just didn’t know it at the time. Learning how to cook last year opened my eyes to so many things. I always liked to bake but only did so once a year. I just baked some bread and made some dinner in my crock pot. If I were to actually say that out loud right now, I think, there would be fear of me bursting out laughing.

That being said I’m really enjoying my new domesticity. That is what is so great about being alive; One can reinvent themselves over and over in a lifetime. Never staying the same and also never really changing. I don’t know what will be the bench mark that makes me check this off my too do list. I’m not sure I’m ready to do that yet. I still smile every time I see this on my list. So there it stays.

called me Betty Crocker the other night because I made muffins. I wasn’t sure to take it as a insult or a complement. ha. My muffins didn’t come out as good as I’d hoped. I substituted brown rice flour for wheat flour but I’m not sure if that is what threw the recipe off. I also had the option of using oil instead of butter and I think the butter would have helped. Either way I think my evolution is underway.

I think this, for me, is sort of wrapped up in my want to be more self sufficient. I mean in terms of my want of a veggie garden and the such. Its also wrapped up in my concern over the chemicals sprayed on food and wanting to learn to cook things with organic ingredients. I know its kind of weird and probably misplaced in a way but these things made me want learn how to cook for myself, I still want to learn to can things. Also my want to get out of debt made me want to be able to make thigns I want instead of buy. I realized that my grandmother would have been appauled at all the frivolous things I spend money and a little more self sufficency is really in order. I want to learn to sew (finally). I have also reached a point in my life where I’ve achieved many of my earlier long term goals and I’m reevaluating many things. I want to spend more time enjoying the life I’ve built and right now that means hosting dinner parties or a cocktail hours.

So in these ways I want to be that stereotype. That perfect happy 50’s woman who does it all and takes names. I dont know all of what my specific goals will here yet but I’ll figure them out as I go along. :D

I have been thinking cloths today are soooo ugly. I read somewhere that someone said everyone looked like they are wearing leftovers. I couldn’t agree more. Occasionally I would think someone looks cute but not often. I would play games in NYC where I would look for someone who I thought was dressed cutely but one day, in a nice neighborhood, I searched for an hour and….nothing.From what I have seen of Douglas Hannants cloths, they are lovely. I actually like quite alot of it. It is so nice to start liking what is out there again.

I have really been thinking about this lately. I want to feel more ladylike. I have been a bull in a china cabinet for the last few years and it is getting on my last nerve. I didn’t used to be, in fact I would say I was described as quite ladylike but I haven’t been for long enough that I am going to have to work at getting this back.