be happy for what I have

I have caring parents and loving boyfriend but my parents wont accept a love marriage. I have not at told them about him. they are very loving and gave me everything i wanted in life, i cant hurt them saying about my love. I cant even live without him, he loves me a lot. my friends say even they cant support me in this situation, this is making me depressed. I got wonderful people in my life but i am not able to be happy. i couldnt concentrate on my career and always thinking about how i am going to handle this. its making me sick, its been long time laughing happily. my parents and boyfriend live in a different country and im feeling so lonely here. i want to come out of this and make myself happy and bold.

...to be happy with my own life. I have to grow up and face the fact that money will not make me a happier person. I have a wife and two wonderful (really) kids, I live in a country where there is no war or poverty and I own everthing I will ever need.

Get a grip!!

some days this is easier then others and i keep trying. i think now i accept that i did things wrong i can make them right now. or at least do it better in the future im goin the right way now and that makes me happier for everything else i have