mean something to someone else

I just found out that I meant and still do mean something to my first ever boyfriend, Wes. He revealed this to me after a 5 year stay in prison. Wes also told me some of the things he loved about me, favorite memories and just some of the sweetest things he has ever said to me. I know, I was WOW.

Amazingly good feelings coming from all directions on this.

I was thinking tonight about a friend I hear from every so often. Since I moved out of my parents we’ve talked a little more often. He’s a travelling musician of sorts and it’s always interesting to find out where he is and what he’s doing. Yet I haven’t heard from him in a while. I hope he is ok. He’s a friend I made via the internet with a game called Ancient Anguish.

We’ve talked alot on the phone and about meeting but it hasn’t happened. Last few times we’ve talked he’s realized or at least said it aloud that he’s glad I’m there for him and don’t spaz out on him. I believe he considers me a real friend. So I do mean something to someone else. Just not quite the way I want it. Go figure.

Anyhow I’m bringing this up because I am not all alone out here as I sometimes think. Plus I was reminded of him as I have been waiting to pick up a cd of his former band Inconvinance. So if anyone anywhere finds a copy, PLLLLLLLEASE mail me and let me know where I can pick up a copy. The song track I heard from it is awesome and I want the cd badly.

Life is a trip with all it’s twists and turns!

Maybe I can check this off as I now mean something to Little Man? Of course, it’s not the way I meant it.. so I guess not. Pashaw and pashouee. He seems to like me around for company at least. Small progress in the eyes of the animal world…onward ho to human world and meaning something to someone there. Yee-haw.

I want to mean more to someone then “Oh that’s my ride” or “Hey meet my friend..” I want to be someone special to someone else. It’d be nice if they were my someone special too.

This was something I dreamed about. I wanted to know that there was someone out there who felt I meant something to him and vice versa. So far this goal is quite lofty. I don’t know if I’d ever mean anything more then a friend just yet. I’ve had ex’s tell me that they wanted to marry me, but I think to them it was just a game that they played. I want reality, the nitty gritty of meaning something to someone. Don’t know how long this goal will take…