be deliriously happy

Someday this day will come!!

trying so hard to get over a love that took love somewhere else…

...was the day I found out that it didn’t matter if I failed calculus 121 since it is no longer a part of my degree!!!!! Ahh what a beautiful world it is. Sweet sweet joy!

And all the more sweeter because it was absolutely unexpected!

(hums contentedly to self)
(grins broadly)

he is amazing.

This goal is possibly the most fulfilling goal I have completed thus far. I really did sing with rapture and dance like a Dervish this one time! ( I was barefoot in the rain and everything!) This is mostly thanks to a very close friend of mine who saved my life… I can’t believe I didn’t notice him before, at least… not in that way. The best advice I can offer to anyone who’s interested in hearing it, is that sometimes there are a few things you can’t do on your own. It’s okay to accept help from other people. If anything, it’s almost always much more beneficial to “open-up”, something I usually have trouble doing. So for any of you who have an atrociously stubborn disposition, ( guilty as charged :-) ) maybe you should let someone in your life. There’s always at least one person out there interested in helping you. You just have to take the time to find them.

So this week has officially sucked. My friend has just commited suicide, my cousin’s in rehab, and the love of my life is going out with one of my best friends. All I really want to do right now is laugh and be deliriously happy. I heard that phrase on “Meet Joe Black” ( excellent movie, by the way ), and I don’t think anything has ever sounded more enticing. I’m not sure how I am going to accomplish that… I just want to feel good. I know it may sound pretty selfish to be so concerned with my own happiness, but how can I take better care of other people if I can’t take care of myself? Good luck to anyone else who wants to be as deliriously happy as I do…