be more honest and open

i have been through periods, during my alcoholism and afterwards, of hiding from people at the door. because i was so in debt the bailiffs or the legalised loan-sharks would be around. or in this past year i’ve hidden from some1 occasionally because i didn’t want 2 see them. such a cowardly thing 2 do, i know.

no more as of 2day i’ll open my door 2 anyone.

i can b honest 2 a point with close friends, but i’m still a little reserved even around them. i will get the chance 2 try this out 4 good when kev comes 2 live with me… it’s the 1st since i left rehab so it will be interesting 2 see how far i’ve come in the honesty/openess stakes. i know every relationship is different but i’m going 2 use my relationships in the past in my using days as a benchmark. i think i’ve surpassed them already. i’ve a long way 2 go yet.