be better to my body

Sometimes, I am just such a tool. For years and years (okay, for year), I’ve been searching valiantly but in vain for a legitimate tinted moisturizer that would make my skin feel and look like I wasn’t wearing any makeup at all. I started with organic minerals on Etsy from two different sellers, then I tried Suki’s and then Neutrogena when I could no longer afford Suki. As I’m running low again, I’ve gone back to the internet search, tried Sephora’s website, asked my best friend, etc, etc. Everything I’ve seen or read about or heard of seems just fine, but really, just fine. What to do, what to do?

Then it dawns on me…wait, I hate wearing stuff on my skin and what I really want is healthier, silkier skin, not healthier, silkier makeup. What a fool I am. So I promptly proceed to Suki’s website (yes, expensive as fraq, but I love them so) and bought two products designed to help my skin look and feel its best. No expensive chemically foundation necessary.

Why, why didn’t I consider this earlier?

Welp, I still haven’t committed to a new and fun form of exercise (i.e. a yoga or swim class), but I’m still trying. The elliptical machine is working out splendid, although it might be a little difficult with my wrist being all bent out of shape and all.

But the eating seems to be getting better! We’re stocking the fridge with healthy, delicious treats and loving it.

In the midst of trying to find inner peace with my body, I’d like to better myself by trying to adapt a healthier diet to stave off my family’s history of cancer and heart disease. I don’t want to achieve “skinniness,” I want to be fit and in shape. I always feel healthier and well whenever I eat well and work out, so this should be a fun goal to work on.

Meanwhile, I’ll start out with these guides…

- Organic foods
- Water instead of Coca-Cola (That one’s gonna kill me!)
- Stick to fish and chicken
- Commit to a fun and exciting form of exercise

It’s so, so bloody off-putting to take a look at your body and realize all of the ways it has even mildly betrayed you. Maybe if I’m better to it I’ll feel much better about it.

I am so much more than my body, but still, how odd it is to have one.

My Dad is a dear and fixed my rowing machine pedal for me so now, now I have my rower and no further excuses. I’ve been walking past a lot of mirrors lately for reasons I can’t fathom and wondering how fantastic it would be to feel that the reflection were a true representation.

Exercise is all the rage, kiddos, have you heard?

I’m so ready. So ready.

In recent times I have made the step to becoming a vegetarian, and while still consuming cheese and rarely milk, I am thinking of becoming a vegan. This will be a bit of a time consumer at first, but it seems worth it. New recipes and such. I can handle that, no problem. I can do that for myself.

Also, today (1/6) I have consumed over a quart of water. Rock.

It’s all my diet really consists of.
It isn’t the best, but it is certainly not the worst.
I hardly eat red meat, actually, when I do eat meat, it’s only chicken or fish. I do a lot of yoga in the morning, and I think I am doing well. My only problem is succumbing to sweets time to time. But you know what? That’s not bad, that’s life.

Shame on me.
It’s the holidays.
And I am one binging son of a betch.

Schhhhaaaarew dieting.
I think drawing out an eating plan that can realistically revolve around my busy schedule would be a nice start to this.

Then all I’d have to do is follow it.

There’s no better way to start your college career than pizza and breadsticks for breakfast.

How good is that, man…