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Netdisaster? I just wreaked havoc on John McCain’s web site.

I just posted a new entry under a goal, but it’s not showing up on my home page thingy, BUT when I go look at the goal, there’s that entry right up top where it should be.

Has the cheer goblin started messing with other parts of 43Land, too?

EDIT: OK, this is freaking weird. I just refreshed the page, and the last two entries (the one that didn’t show up and this one) are right where they should be, AND a cheer that it at first showed I received 8 minutes ago, now says it was received 20 hours ago. What the hell? I don’t stay signed in or anything, so I can’t imagine what caused that to happen.

I don’t like it when 43T is out of whack.

After a short little break, I’m feelin’ ready to start tackling some non-life-changing goals again. In the past two months I have quit my job AND moved in with my boyfriend. I left my lame-ass, soul-sapping job on a Friday afternoon, decided I was never going back, and that was basically that. I just couldn’t do it anymore. Living on the verge of a bona fide nervous breakdown just isn’t my cup of tea. The moving-in-with-the-boyfriend thing took a little adjusting, but all in all, it’s going pretty well.

So yeah…that’s me.

I was fine with all the changes that came a few weeks back (or a few months, whenever it was), but you know, I miss the old colors. They just seemed more friendly, like colors you’d want to hang out and have a beer with on the porch. This darker blues are kind of like IRS jerks or disapproving parents. I’m sensitive to colors, and these new ones are hurting my feelings.

I just heard some news at work that pissed me off beyond belief, so how did I handle it? I went with E – the chick I work with – and got drunk. Not just tipsy. No, sir, I am drunk.

I just spent an hour and a half drinking Irish Car Bombs and Red Stripe and various fruity drinks, and we followed that up with sitting in my car singing along as loudly as we could to the Beastie Boys.

Wow.

You would think at some point some lesson would have sunk in about this, huh?

Well…not yet. Obviously.

Green Porno? Isabella Rossellini explains the mating habits of insects. This has to be one of the most bizarre things I’ve seen in a long time.

The bee is my favorite. :)

smoking yesterday. Again. I was going to post this under finish what I start but since I’m not sure I’m finished and I certainly haven’t been in the past when I’ve quit before, I figured this was more apropos? I feel pretty good this morning and I think I can make it through today too.

In case you were wondering, sitting at work – when everyone else you know is at home bein’ all lazy on Memorial Day – sucks. I have nothing to do while waiting on the pages to get finished for me to proofread, so I just went back and read all my entries again. Every single one. In doing so, I noticed a few things about me, myself and I:

1. I am really glad I stopped drinking so much. Sure, I had a lot of good times, but now I feel like at least some of that time could have been used more constructively. Oh well…it was awesome while it lasted, but I’ve reached the point where life needs to be about something more, you know?
2. Every day of my life seems to have some HUGE high or an AWFUL low. I don’t live in the middle, and that’s OK with me. I’ve always liked the Charles Bukowski line where he said, “Some people never go crazy, What truly horrible lives they must lead.”
3. Maybe things aren’t as random as I’ve always liked to believe. Around this time last year, I met Christopher, and boy, wasn’t that a roller coaster? For a long time, I marveled at how random it all was – meeting him, the initial lovey-doveyness, the break-ups, the fights, the blah blah blah… And then I was normal Melissa again, but you know, after him, I never felt quite satisfied again even when I was having my HIGH highs and my LOW lows. So maybe having him back in my life is the way things were meant to pan out. It almost seems too odd to have been purely coincidental.

So here I sit at 5:25 p.m. at work ALONE and bored out of my noggin. I have surfed the interwebz until there is nothing left of value or amusement to find. I have eaten four different kinds of fruit and some yogurt – not bar-b-que like my family is probably eating right now. I have talked to Christopher on the phone about 9 times today and envied – almost to the point of physical pain – the one hour nap he just woke up from. I have daydreamed about new jobs and remembered old kisses.

Today might just end up being the one that gets the best of me.

not getting e-mail notifications? It’s been like this for close to two days now. What’s the deal, yo?

wanted to add a goal to your list and then agonized over the wording?

I am ridiculous – but I’m going to sleep on it and add that goal tomorrow. :)