be comfortable

I just want to be completely on top of things. I want to know what bills I will be paying every month and approx. how much they’ll be. I dont want added stress of a significant others debt and traffic violations. I dont want a roommate who spends money like its nothing and then not pay rent which will make me go in debt to pay the rent so i dont get evicted. I want to not be so nervous about trying new things like going to college, I also want to stop worrying about how I’m going to pay for everything if I do go to college. I want to be comfortable.

at the moment i am totally comfortable in regards to my financiial situation. i have a job i like, extra income from helping out a charity and savings.
basically i can afford what i need (in moderation) and its a nice feeling.
however i feel there are still other aspects in my life that im not comfortable in, eg. my social life is still not what i’d like, im still unfinished with my degree and although i enjoy life, its not 100%.
but i am getting there!

i think its due to uncertainty in my days. i dont have regular shifts at work, i know hardly anyone in oxford at the moment, am eating irregular and generally feel at unease due to boredom! grr…

or laying listening to norah jones after a good meal with a friend = comfort!!

i want to be happy where i am. i want to be happy with myself, my situation and be content for once in my life. that’s not to say i want to be stagnant, but i want to be comfortable.

I’m not sure I am getting enough support for this goal, and i worry about that, and the worrying is the only thing keeping me from being comfortable. It seems like the more i know about what’s going on in the world, the more i worry and can’t attain that perfect comfort. But I will keep trying… the bliss is out there.

Oh, who cares?

I don’t sleep. I don’t eat right. I don’t exercise on a regular basis. I smoke. I drink. Save your advice, I only listed what makes me happy, not what’s bothering me. If I knew that, I wouldn’t be here. :)

I think a lot of people just don’t get it. It’s total relaxation for the body as well as the mind, plus having every need taken care of as needed. It begins with a complete lack of aches, pains, itches and all those annoying little bodily alarms that can keep us from relaxing. It’s also a sense of warmth and fullness (lack of hunger), not too warm or cold.
For some people this is already a given; they are too spoiled to really appreciate it. For those who wish to attain it, it is a state that will be its own reward when finally reached.

I need more specific goals… this is not one.