let go of people who are bad for me.

Keep moving forward!!

I’m done dealing with people who pull me back!!!!!!!!!

I did to one, I am ever-so glad.

Almost done! I have let 2 crazy people out of my life this semester, I would click done once I 100 percent done think/worry about them. I am doing very well though:-) yay!

It is so incredibly hard. She doesn’t see she’s crazy!! She doesn’t see that she is exhausting to be around, her outbreaks, her ego ah i have been feeling so much better now that i spend my time with chiller friends, less drama, less yelling..but this girl is impossible to get away from

Today was a big today. She actually asked me “Have i done anything” after many unreplied messages. Perfect timing. I told her i just cant do it, and all that stuff. But i got like 10000 more messages

don’t feel bad for her guys, she doesnt care about me, she cares about my freinds. i was her social planner, her little bitch, shed call me id have the plans and shed use me. she is just lonely but i cant handle someone so draining, i have been so miserable this semster i cant handle anothe rone. Enoguh is enough, i am done with stressing over her. i wnat her out of my mind!!

I have three classes with her next semster i will be cordial but i cant tell u the anxiety i have even when i walk on campus that ill see her…

I must do this.
My grades this semester are attrocious.
I was an excellent student (one B+ last year) and have let homesickness, and excessive drama from one friend in particular consume my thoughts and mind.

I must realize that college will be over, and what will stay with me are very few friends that I ove, and my academic achievements. I must focus on that, but it is hard to be happy with this person in my life

i dont know how to cut them, i go to a very small school and don’t want people talking about what a bitch i am for cutting out this friend, but at hte same time life is too short to waste on a truly troubled individual.

I am trying to slowly cut her out, i wish she would find her own friends and leave me alone, but at hte same time i cant wait around for her to succeed i need to just go and do whats best for me

my grandfather had a stroke yesterday. It broke my heart and does every single day, but just reflecting on him i cannot fathom for a second that his true worries are any gossip from his 20s. OR how people didnt like him, this situation is not bad in the realm of things, and i need to just get her out so i can love my life.

I have had some “friends” since childhood who I thought were like family and that understood loyalty, but there comes a point in your life when you ask yourself .. How has this person been a friend to me lately? In the last five years? I realized that as we grew up, we shared the old bond of twenty something years of knowing each other, but that was it. People grow up and things change. Too much negativity. No loyalty , a lot of snide comments and jealousy. I got a high blood pressure result from my check up this year, and I’m in my early twenties and healthy. I can only imagine it was from stressing about drama and bs with these so called friends and the backstabbing. I realized I was naive. It hurt a lot at first which is why I stressed. I let them be my core group of friends, like family, but not everyone was a true friend in that circle. So I am keeping the ones who are and distancing myself from the rest in a subtle way. I see them when I see them. I’m polite and I go about my business. I refocused my energy on me and bettering myself. I returned to school and am more focused on my life, and I cherish the people around me who show their true friendship through it all. I look at the situation as God’s way of showing me who is who, and I took note. If they are not serving a meaningful and positive purpose in my life then they are free to go their way. Result: Less stress, and I feel better overall. Cut the cancer.

Walking to the school, my friend once told me, “gwapa nimo oi, basta you are blooming today! What’s with you?” I don’t know I just feel happy, my reply. Little did she know that I have more reason to be happy, look happy, beautiful and blooming on that day. I am not in love, but i feel love and peace within me. It’s the feeling where you don’t worry, and confident about your self since you know that with you are the people who truly care about you. It’s like the new you, plus new people and the realization that you still have true friends left.

To be healthy you have to be around with true people and true friends. You choose your friends very well.

I’ve changed so much, but for the good.

I realized that during my past self I’ve been too confident about myself that I have hurt many people.
I guess not that I really hurt them. i tried not to.
But there are people who really misinterpret you or something. I just don’t know. Maybe life is really like that. There are times that people will not be pleased with you and sometimes they will. There are many people feeling jealous over something not worth to be jealous of. Or find only the mistakes and flaws in you, when they their selves weren’t able to reflect and change.

I guess, its their way of covering up their frustrations for their selves. So they end up, backstabbing, making-up stories and hurting others, and I felt bad really about those people who ‘na-is lang’

Maybe one thing I like to do in my life, is go some other place with new people and start fresh. and hopefully I will find someone who will love me no matter what as my partner.

But as for now , I have to let go, continue living, and be filled and satisfied by the love and understanding given by the people who love me. ;)

If they aren’t exactly good for you for one reason or another, does that make them bad for you??? hmm.