move back to Australia

I’ve arrived back in Australia! This is it: I am back for good.
Awaiting the arrival of my possessions.
Feels weird. Exciting and scary, but I have suppport and that is most important.

I leave Sweden for good this Sunday 31st. A blessed day.
My belongings (11 boxes, 250kg) were collected yesterday to be shipped off from Arlanda; all that remains is myself and not for long!
I feel so good – this month-long organisational dance has come together in perfect order and every last frayed and raggedy end has been neatly tied. I have cut no corners nor left any guilt behind.
I am proud of myself.

I wonder how I will feel being back in Australia for good and having just one, permanent, life? As long as it’s full and busy and includes Tony, then I think I will be very happy. I know with all of my heart and soul that this is the right move. The direction in which I am now headed is straight and graceful; it’s the true one, and I will stay on this path.

I’m in Sweden again and ending my life here. I’m selling furniture and giving away clothes; I’m packing goods to ship back to Australia. I’m seeing friends and saying goodbye. I’m resigning from my job. I’m walking the town of Gävle and remembering my 6 years here. I’m visiting the churches. I’m seeing my beloved cats and feeling grateful to Lena for giving them such a good life on her farm. I’m thinking about Sebastian and the past. I’m thinking about Tony and the future. I’m keeping the present straight and clean and feeling very happy.

I have decided on a date by which I must have moved out of my apartment in Gävle, Sweden.
I have let Gavlegårdarna know and that is the first day of June, 2009.
I therefore have exactly 1 month from when I get back to Sweden in which to sell my furniture and household goods, pack up and send off the things that are going back to Australia with me, finalise administrative dealings, resign from my job, take leave of my friends and do all the other necessary things required of one moving country.
I hope to be able to stay with friends if not all of that is completed within the one month period, but I will try my hardest as i don’t want to linger any longer there.
Time to come home and start a new, solid life surrounded by things that have meaning.
I will remain upbeat and positive through this period and continue my good habits. It is a highly exciting time.

I want to leave only good final memories of me behind and for this I will take my leave graciously, repair damaged friendships, tie up all loose ends and leave only a tidy wake.

I want to go home. I cry myself to sleep because I miss my whole family and my everyday life in Australia.

I really, really, really want to go home.

I miss sydney.. Aussies the best!! Its home sweet home.. Love it.. Can’t think of a better place to live.. Right now I live in the polluted country Indonesia.. I’m tired of living here now.. It’s not fun anymore.. I wanna go home… =’( Indonesia is sort of my home cause I’m half from the country.. But it doesn’t feel as much HOMEY as AUSTRALIA =)

Flying home on the 1st August! yay! 4 years done.

Ah!! I need to commit, this year I am moving back to Oz, getting my place again and finding a husband!