Have kids with the man I love

In a sense anyway,
nothing’s really changed in these respects.
I know the timing’s horrible;
we’re rocking the whole long distance thing =(
both furthering the whole education thing..
plus a few other complications;;
and I hate hate hate to be overdramatic.
but it’s heartbreaking sometimes-
all these people right now that are pregnant and many of them don’t even want to be;
they’ll have an abortion,
or an adoption,
or are just miserable with the circumstance but “dealing with it”

and yet I want nothing more than to be,
but can’t?
:(

I can’t describe how badly I want to accomplish this goal :P.
I have an amazing stepson but sometimes even he makes me more heartsick to be a mommy too =[.